finally..another entry
i suppose its been quite a while since i've written here. and much has changed. *except that i still love mornings with coffee and radiohead...* i drink decaff now. ?! and i just found the best decaf. its not bad at all...
so enough of the bullshit mumbo jumbo. no one really cares about the facts of my insignificant life anyway. because really all of our lives are just like tiny grains of sand lost somewhere on this planet, and none of them really mean anything, no matter how much we want our life to mean something.
so my anti socialness has pretty much taken to the max. and its great. no more fussing about stupid shit. just enjoy the little things in life. last night i woke up to the rain tapping my window. it woke me up to remind me there is a wonderful amazing world out there. "psst... tap tap tap.. .nikki i'm here..." it was beautiful. i love rain.
ahh there's so much that i want to say but it all just drifts through my mind before i can get it out. ...i want to say something about control. sometimes i wonder why we should control ourselves or our lives, since they're really so insignificant in the whole scheme of things (aS i've said). and then i begin to lose control a bit... i have sort of straightened my life out a bit--controlling myself and all--and i think that if i hadn't i would really be insane. now i'm just a bit insane but its tolerable.
ok ok i must go off to school young lads.. be back soon i hope you all did wonderful without me.
so enough of the bullshit mumbo jumbo. no one really cares about the facts of my insignificant life anyway. because really all of our lives are just like tiny grains of sand lost somewhere on this planet, and none of them really mean anything, no matter how much we want our life to mean something.
so my anti socialness has pretty much taken to the max. and its great. no more fussing about stupid shit. just enjoy the little things in life. last night i woke up to the rain tapping my window. it woke me up to remind me there is a wonderful amazing world out there. "psst... tap tap tap.. .nikki i'm here..." it was beautiful. i love rain.
ahh there's so much that i want to say but it all just drifts through my mind before i can get it out. ...i want to say something about control. sometimes i wonder why we should control ourselves or our lives, since they're really so insignificant in the whole scheme of things (aS i've said). and then i begin to lose control a bit... i have sort of straightened my life out a bit--controlling myself and all--and i think that if i hadn't i would really be insane. now i'm just a bit insane but its tolerable.
ok ok i must go off to school young lads.. be back soon i hope you all did wonderful without me.