I feel sullied and unusual
I don't think there are any words I can actually use to fully describe the way I'm feeling at the moment. It's sort of as though I've reached a depressive state of drunkenness even though I haven't been drinking. I feel like I want to talk to my friends but at the same time I want everyone to leave me alone. Sort of like I'm in a dark pit. I know I can get out but at the moment I feel too tired to climb.
I miss Brittany so much. I failed sociology and I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. My boss is firing people for the stupidest reasons and I'm scared that I'm gonna be next. I'm feeling paranoid that everyone secretly hates me and can't bring themselves to tell me.
Normally I'd do a livejournal cut for this but to hell with all of you.
I had a really weird dream last night that I was in this dark place with the Christopher Eccleston Doctor Who, and we knew danger was coming in the form of some weird alien enemy. Then he turned to me, put his hands on my shoulders and looked me straight in the eye with the most serious look ever. He said something like "Danger is coming, Viv. When you see them coming, I want you to run. Run as fast as you can. Don't worry about me, just keep running and don't look back."
I didn't like this idea very much and got a bit upset. I was in this weird dark place that looked pretty much like another planet and apart from him I was all alone. I didn't want to leave him there because if I did, not only would I never see him again but he could get badly hurt or killed. But before I knew it, I heard a noise and he suddenly yelled "Run!" and pushed hard on my back. I found myself running away, and the sound of his voice trailed off into the distance.
Then my dream changed and I was walking at this weird beach that seemed almost european. It was cloudy and there was this huge cliff over the water. I was walking on the sand, looking up at the cliff. Then I saw Barbossa from Pirates, who started walking towards me. He smiled and looked friendly. My first thought was "Yay, Barbossa! He's such a legend and stuff." but then got a bit freaked out because when he came near me he took out his cutlass. I saw a ghostly ship behind the cliff and saw all these zombie pirates running behind him, and now he was running towards me. I remembered what The Doctor told me and started running away. I ran and ran and ran until I was just outside the cinemas at Marion. I saw Eliza and Meghan there. I ran up to them and warned them that I was being chased by Zombie pirates (yeah, I know) and for-the-love-of-god-do-not-let-them-bite. But suddenly, a zombie pirate came out of nowhere and Meghan got bitten! I screamed and ran behind the popcorn counters and Eliza came with me. The zombie pirates were aimlessly walking around trying to eat people's brains and now Meghan was one of them. Then Eliza told me that she wasn't going to let this ruin her day and walked into a cinema. I stood up and walked towards the cinema too, wondering if The Doctor had survived and whether he was okay.
And I woke up. You know what's weird? Before I wrote this down I thought it was just some weird dream but now that I actually re-read it in print I can see all the stupid messages my subconscious has been giving me. Damn everything. I'd write down my interpretation but I can't be arsed right now. What's weird too is that writing that down actually made me feel less crappy.
I miss Brittany so much. I failed sociology and I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. My boss is firing people for the stupidest reasons and I'm scared that I'm gonna be next. I'm feeling paranoid that everyone secretly hates me and can't bring themselves to tell me.
Normally I'd do a livejournal cut for this but to hell with all of you.
I had a really weird dream last night that I was in this dark place with the Christopher Eccleston Doctor Who, and we knew danger was coming in the form of some weird alien enemy. Then he turned to me, put his hands on my shoulders and looked me straight in the eye with the most serious look ever. He said something like "Danger is coming, Viv. When you see them coming, I want you to run. Run as fast as you can. Don't worry about me, just keep running and don't look back."
I didn't like this idea very much and got a bit upset. I was in this weird dark place that looked pretty much like another planet and apart from him I was all alone. I didn't want to leave him there because if I did, not only would I never see him again but he could get badly hurt or killed. But before I knew it, I heard a noise and he suddenly yelled "Run!" and pushed hard on my back. I found myself running away, and the sound of his voice trailed off into the distance.
Then my dream changed and I was walking at this weird beach that seemed almost european. It was cloudy and there was this huge cliff over the water. I was walking on the sand, looking up at the cliff. Then I saw Barbossa from Pirates, who started walking towards me. He smiled and looked friendly. My first thought was "Yay, Barbossa! He's such a legend and stuff." but then got a bit freaked out because when he came near me he took out his cutlass. I saw a ghostly ship behind the cliff and saw all these zombie pirates running behind him, and now he was running towards me. I remembered what The Doctor told me and started running away. I ran and ran and ran until I was just outside the cinemas at Marion. I saw Eliza and Meghan there. I ran up to them and warned them that I was being chased by Zombie pirates (yeah, I know) and for-the-love-of-god-do-not-let-them-bite. But suddenly, a zombie pirate came out of nowhere and Meghan got bitten! I screamed and ran behind the popcorn counters and Eliza came with me. The zombie pirates were aimlessly walking around trying to eat people's brains and now Meghan was one of them. Then Eliza told me that she wasn't going to let this ruin her day and walked into a cinema. I stood up and walked towards the cinema too, wondering if The Doctor had survived and whether he was okay.
And I woke up. You know what's weird? Before I wrote this down I thought it was just some weird dream but now that I actually re-read it in print I can see all the stupid messages my subconscious has been giving me. Damn everything. I'd write down my interpretation but I can't be arsed right now. What's weird too is that writing that down actually made me feel less crappy.