Polka and KMFDM have broken the country music craze for now. More musings..

[shmippy]

I got a package!!!
Well just a small, square box *giggle* and it's from a cool Matt out in Okraville. Stilwell Angel!! HAHAHAHA. That's so awesome. Actually it arrived on Saturday but my dad handed it to me as I was like getting things together to walk out the door (and I've been gone since then.) So I am just now getting to open it and be

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[tfpandora]

KMFDM=awesomeness. Rocky=pain in the arse. Honestly, I feel much like (but not quite like) you about Rocky. I love it, it's cool, but I don't want to miss out on life while I'm there hanging out feeling like I don't quite belong. But then, I never feel like I belong all the way. There's always a moment or a something that is just... off. I don't know how to describe it. I'm not trying to make you feel better or anything, just letting you know that I sympathize and I read everything. And you can be Sasha because I don't wanna be. I hate the stage. I just feel like the obligatory vagina in any gathering of males. You know, like the token black guy. He's not really black, but he looks damn close to it. I'm not really a girl, but I look damn close to it. Rambling. 9am and I should've gone to bed hours ago. Class in a bit so I'll stay up. Back on topic. Right. So yeah, Rocky is like that for people who aren't really sociable. I just pretend really well. I like it better when I'm either not saying/doing anything or just spazzing out in my own special way not paying attention to anyone or anything.... Nothing really belongs anymore though. We are the crazies of the world. At least I am. The crazy man that is - it's everyone else, I swear! And I really do hate the stage, I hate everything about performing because I have my own character to keep up with; lines to memorize, actions to script and time perfectly, production costs and such to think about... I spend all the time trying on different personalities and none of it really works. Just a thought. I hate playing a character on stage because I am a character. Hmmm... musings for an LJ post? That one will be private.
Let me move on to topic #2. College/school a dream in general. It's simple really, I envy you. You have some idea of what you want. Even if it's just the tiniest little thought, it's oceans more than what I've got. I admire just that tiny drop, I really do.
That's it really. I'm done rambling and you can now delete this or not read this far because this comment should've been an entry titled to you by itself, but it's a comment. Do with it what you will. Uncensored and all.