It's four am. And I can't sleep. Again. Only this time I'm posting.

[shmippy]

Sometimes I want to just start completely over and never, ever see anyone I know now again.

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This place is too big for me. None of this means anything and won't make sense so I'll just stick to song lyrics.

A new song... only half the lyrics are relevant to this feeling.
Build a fire a thousand miles away

Comments

[aizjanika]

Ah, that's good to hear from another military brat. :-) I think it was hard for my kids to make friends because they were both somewhat shy and introverted and homeschooled. That combination with the moving every couple of years was difficult to overcome at times. Sometimes they got so they resented homeschool group stuff that was intended for them to socialize with other kids. (It seemed too forced to them.) My son (15) is more open to that now, though.

I don't know where my desire to move on and leave everything else behind came from. I just always liked that idea of starting over someplace new, learning new geography, new people, new everything. It was also an escape from an uncomfortable position if there was one (i.e. like a job or a nosy neighbor) without having to actually DO anything about it. hehe Also, as much as I love my family, the times when we did live closer to home weren't all that great. It always felt like people wanted something from us all the time, and I'm afraid I'm now used to doing things our own way without being pulled in so many directions. The downside, though, is that when we do visit, it's never totally casual because you can't get together for just an afternoon or meet for lunch.

I'm sure you're aware, too, of how easy it is to change change your image when you move. Or perhaps "image" isn't the right word. ;-) But I remember my friend deciding to dye her hair, for example, between moves so that all her new friends would only know her with the new hair color and they'd never know that she was going gray at only 22 years old. Another time, she told me, she just decided to be more outgoing in her new place and she was! I don't know if I could change that much because I'm pretty down to earth and not very good at being anything other than me, but still...sometimes people know stuff about you and in the new place, well...they don't. ;-)

You've got really neat icons.

Thanks! I wish I could take credit for making them all, but most are snagged from the experts.