a letter to the woman that will never read this
well, although juanita will never read this, I have to say it.......
I was having an awesome day until she decided to screw with me. I am almost sure she knows I am weak when she is around me, and yet she calls my cell and leaves a voice message saying "oh hi, I am on your side of town tonight, if you want to go out maybe meet me at the mall just give me a call."
come on juanita, stop fooling yourself, you KNOW I do not approve of the man you are married to. just the fact that you have to turn to others for attention since your closet case husband won't give you any drives me to insanity!
besides, what are you doing on my side of town without josh being with you. who is this new friend you have, and why are you hanging out with her? are you hiding from Josh?
damn you juanita, I love you too much to see this happen to you! I can not allow you to become an obsession in my life. how can I let you go if you keep holding me hostage? what do you want from me, I will do anything you ask, please, just tell me what you want!!!
I love you more then I have ever loved any other woman. God you know I can not stand to see josh treat you this way. Stop telling me it's all ok, I know its not!!!! don't lie to me like this. you insult my intellegence, why are you doing this, who are you putting on a show for?
are you staying with him because you dont want to do what your mother did. it's ok to divorce that creep!!! you know he only holds you down! I am not telling you this because I am trying to seperate you from anything. I am telling you this not only beacsue I love you, but also as a friend.
you tell me you want this to work, then make it so! don't hide from josh by hanging out with friends. are you afraid of him? are you afraid of what he might do if you try to seperate from him? he may be possesive of you, but you have to confront him. do you not understand what will happen if you let this continue.
you know damn well I won't stand for this juanita! you know if he hurts you I will put a stop to it. if he is hurting you, don't skate around it anymore, for God sake, tell me, and I will help you. I can't help you if I don't know whats wrong.
God you frustrate me, but yet I love you so much it hurts. just tell me what you want and I will do it. I will do anything you ask of me, please, tell me what you want from me. I can not be held down and shadowed from you anymore. if you are truly happy with this man, tell me you are, let me go, and allow me to heal. stop pouring salt on my wounds like this!!!!
I can't say this to your face with out hurting you, so how can I fix this problem? does this mean I am in a catch 22?
damn it I love you........
but you have to help me bring closure to this........
I can't be apart of your triangle anymore.......
I was having an awesome day until she decided to screw with me. I am almost sure she knows I am weak when she is around me, and yet she calls my cell and leaves a voice message saying "oh hi, I am on your side of town tonight, if you want to go out maybe meet me at the mall just give me a call."
come on juanita, stop fooling yourself, you KNOW I do not approve of the man you are married to. just the fact that you have to turn to others for attention since your closet case husband won't give you any drives me to insanity!
besides, what are you doing on my side of town without josh being with you. who is this new friend you have, and why are you hanging out with her? are you hiding from Josh?
damn you juanita, I love you too much to see this happen to you! I can not allow you to become an obsession in my life. how can I let you go if you keep holding me hostage? what do you want from me, I will do anything you ask, please, just tell me what you want!!!
I love you more then I have ever loved any other woman. God you know I can not stand to see josh treat you this way. Stop telling me it's all ok, I know its not!!!! don't lie to me like this. you insult my intellegence, why are you doing this, who are you putting on a show for?
are you staying with him because you dont want to do what your mother did. it's ok to divorce that creep!!! you know he only holds you down! I am not telling you this because I am trying to seperate you from anything. I am telling you this not only beacsue I love you, but also as a friend.
you tell me you want this to work, then make it so! don't hide from josh by hanging out with friends. are you afraid of him? are you afraid of what he might do if you try to seperate from him? he may be possesive of you, but you have to confront him. do you not understand what will happen if you let this continue.
you know damn well I won't stand for this juanita! you know if he hurts you I will put a stop to it. if he is hurting you, don't skate around it anymore, for God sake, tell me, and I will help you. I can't help you if I don't know whats wrong.
God you frustrate me, but yet I love you so much it hurts. just tell me what you want and I will do it. I will do anything you ask of me, please, tell me what you want from me. I can not be held down and shadowed from you anymore. if you are truly happy with this man, tell me you are, let me go, and allow me to heal. stop pouring salt on my wounds like this!!!!
I can't say this to your face with out hurting you, so how can I fix this problem? does this mean I am in a catch 22?
damn it I love you........
but you have to help me bring closure to this........
I can't be apart of your triangle anymore.......