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hmm i havent posted an actual update in a while.
lets see...i have finally cut the strings that were pulling me back this whole time and screwing up alot of things (and by this i mean ex's)
i have decided that i NEVER want to live with my father because he is a mindless asshole. i found out that the person i thought he was, he wasnt. he has been lying to me about his life and living situation for the past 2 years, if not more. and iabsolutely hate him because he didnt even have the balls to tell me about it. i do not want such a coward for a father.
on the bright side however, i love being a writer. i fucking kill him in my emails. me loves it. :D
**id also like to apologize to anyone ive been a bitch to in the past few days while ive been dealing with my asshole of a father coughcatycough, ive been way to caught up in being a bitch to him that it came out on other people as well
o great, justin is back at school. its so awkward, but i had to. i dont miss him, i just feel really really bad because he keeps wanting to talk to me and hes apologizing about shit that he shouldnt apologize because he cant control them and its stupid. and i also feel like a bitch because im so much happier now that we're not together. wow i am a bitch.
mmm what else what else...oh yeah i dont think im going to chelsea's party...too many people know about it and theres probably like a 90% chance people there are gonna get busted. ive worked too fucking hard to win my mom's trust again to lose it all again so i think ill stay away from that. and go to sadie instead :D im such a dork.
wohoo and im also wicked pumped cause me and ev are planning on taking a snowboarding lesson together this weekend or maybe the one after. its gonna be so sick wohoo go mt southington!
mmm and track starts on monday. and i havent even started working out. this is gonna be very, very interesting. but its kinda sweet cause ill get to stay after school like every single day.
okay i think this is the end of my life update...well at least all i want to disclose in my journal anyways...comment because you all love me :]