Thoughts
I have been going back in forth in my head trying to figure life out. I think that I have come to the conclusion that there is no way to figure life out. Everytime I think that I do it changes. I don't know what I want with life. I don't know anything anymore. I keeping thinking what am I doing with my life. What is the purpose of it all? Then I think about love. What is love? Does it actually exsits? Can one person actually truely love another. I am dying for an answer to this. I wonder if love is even possible. Society has made love so unrealistic. How many people do you know that have parents that aren't divorced? As I ask that questions i don't know a single couple that is still married. I would love to get married and have my prince charming and happily ever after. But I am not so sure that that will ever happen. Is that sad or is that just being realistic. I am not asking these questions for answers. I am just sending them out in to the void. These are the thoughts that I have. This what goes on inside my head.
I saw Todd at the Distellery the other night. I think that I love him but then I don't know. Because as I said earlier what is love??? We chatted...it was odd. A while later that night I saw him again. We crossed paths at the bathroom. We just looked at each other. Not much was said. Just a kiss. Well I should say several kisses. They were perfect. The were real. Probably one of the best kisses ever. They were raw emotion kisses. Ones that no amount of words could have said what they did. Then I think does that mean something? Does that mean that we should be together? Or were they just kisses? This is what I do. I over analyiz things. That is a problem because then I drive myself crazy with questions. I have to leave it at this or else I will go crazy....
I saw Todd at the Distellery the other night. I think that I love him but then I don't know. Because as I said earlier what is love??? We chatted...it was odd. A while later that night I saw him again. We crossed paths at the bathroom. We just looked at each other. Not much was said. Just a kiss. Well I should say several kisses. They were perfect. The were real. Probably one of the best kisses ever. They were raw emotion kisses. Ones that no amount of words could have said what they did. Then I think does that mean something? Does that mean that we should be together? Or were they just kisses? This is what I do. I over analyiz things. That is a problem because then I drive myself crazy with questions. I have to leave it at this or else I will go crazy....