hush now baby don't you cry, you're my little alibi
I just need
need some sleep
and I'll be taking you with me
I'm sick of this. And if I could define 'this' i think it would be solved. i'm just so sad all the time and i dont fuckign know why. Everythign in my life is perfectly fine, good even, some parts are incredible... so why can't i just feel blessed and happy? I have friends in school and at home, i have a supportive family, and loving relationship, and my classes are all good. and yet i can't find a reason to get up in the morning other than to go to sleep again.
I dont want to eat. I have no appetite and food grosses me out, and then i eat so im not a bitch and i dont fall asleep at like 6pm, and after i eat i feel even worse. Kill me. Nothing cheers me up, nothing makes me happy. I rather do homework than anything else because at least im accomplishing somethign instead of wasting my parents money.
I'm such a fucking waste. Of other people's energy, of time, of food, of space. I want to go home. But not home to novato, home to nowhere, i just have this general feeling that I'm lost but have nowhere safe to go back to. I wish i were better.
need some sleep
and I'll be taking you with me
I'm sick of this. And if I could define 'this' i think it would be solved. i'm just so sad all the time and i dont fuckign know why. Everythign in my life is perfectly fine, good even, some parts are incredible... so why can't i just feel blessed and happy? I have friends in school and at home, i have a supportive family, and loving relationship, and my classes are all good. and yet i can't find a reason to get up in the morning other than to go to sleep again.
I dont want to eat. I have no appetite and food grosses me out, and then i eat so im not a bitch and i dont fall asleep at like 6pm, and after i eat i feel even worse. Kill me. Nothing cheers me up, nothing makes me happy. I rather do homework than anything else because at least im accomplishing somethign instead of wasting my parents money.
I'm such a fucking waste. Of other people's energy, of time, of food, of space. I want to go home. But not home to novato, home to nowhere, i just have this general feeling that I'm lost but have nowhere safe to go back to. I wish i were better.