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When my phone rang this morning I was in that in-between state where you’re not sure if awake or dreaming. I could hear the incessant beeping banging though my head. Being still dark in my room I knew it could not be my alarm. I quickly reached for my phone and answered. I don’t know what I was expecting but never in a million years would I have guessed what Holly was about to tell me. Caroline Gose was in car accident. I still can’t wrap my heard around it. I mean it’s already noon and I can’t seem to get my thoughts completely off it. I keep trying to focus my energy else where but if I stop for too long it comes right back. I just can not believe it. I don’t know why this has shaken me so. I wasn’t even really good friends with her. For a brief time during school we became fairly close, but you know how that is. Everybody seems to have been everybody’s close friend at one time or another. After a while we didn’t see much of each other except the occasional conversation in the hallway. Thinking about it now I can’t help but smile. She was such a sweet girl. I don’t know. You hear about it all the time. But I just can’t swallow it. I can almost picture her face at our ten year reunion. Now that’s all I can do is picture it. I hope her friends and family are ok. If this has shaken me I can’t imagine what someone who was truly close to her must be going though right now. God! I thought writing this would help clear my mind but so far nothing.