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H'ok. Time for a real entry. Here goes!
I said in my last post that things are going well, and generally they are. I've just gotten a promotion at Massage Envy and I'm leaving my other job at Acadian Ambulance, which I really don't like. I have amazing people in my life and I'm feeling so much more comfortable in my skin than I ever have. I love myself and life is good.
On the other hand, I have SO MUCH STRESSFUL SHIT going on right now:
- I'm about to have a completely new job title at Massage Envy, one that hasn't even existed at our business before, so I'm going to have to not only learn new tasks and skills, but also figure out where I fall in terms of authority and all that fun stuff. It's really about time, and I'm so excited, but I'm having a lot of anxiety about it, partly because of everything else that's piled on me right now as well.
- They want me to go to training in New Orleans next week and I haven't been in that direction since my split with Christan. I know that isn't something big, but the last few times I've been there have not been good experiences and I'm stressed about it. Also the first training day is supposed to be my last day at Acadian, so I'm having to make up hours in advance to be off that day.
- Meg is moving to Slidell (on that same day, no less). This is something I haven't even really dealt with. We've known about it for a while and we just try not to talk about it because I don't know what I'm going to do. We've gotten so close and I've never had a friend quite like her. I think it sucks most because it isn't even her choice. They HAVE to move so that her fiancee, Matt, can have a job. It just sucks. I don't even know what else to say about it.
- Another Meg-related thing: they just finished the custody battle for Matt's daughter, Layla, and it didn't go well at all. They're only going to see her about 4 days out of the month, which is completely heartbreaking. I can't imagine being a parent and not being able to see my own child, or not allowing the other parent to see her (unless he was abusive or on drugs or whatever, of course, and Matt isn't). It's awful.
- Mom's getting weird again. One of her friends who's been sick for a while just got diagnosed with terminal cancer and mom's taking it really hard. I'm having trouble getting in touch with her and things are falling behind. I haven't had health insurance in months and she keeps saying she's going to deal with it, she seems to have lost my car note, which we need to give to this dude who's already bought the car from us, my house note isn't being paid, and ya know what... I miss my mom. It's gotten a lot better but I'm still fucking sick of having to force a relationship with her. I have to put on a happy face and play perfect daughter to even spend time with her because I don't want to stress her out when I know that she can't handle it. I understand that she's going through a lot. I understand that she has issues. But she's an adult, and if her 23 year old daughter, who, by the way, may have inherited some of those same issues, can deal with it, then so can she.
- See above notes about lack of health insurance, etc.
I know this entry is a bit of a downer, but I just had to vent this stuff somewhere. I haven't really been talking about any of it, and that doesn't work for me. Even if I don't find a solution or change anything, just talking helps.
Oh! AND, in the last couple of weeks I've found out about FOUR couples I know who are getting married. Katelyn wants me to be in (and help her plan) her wedding and she's trying to set it for FEBRUARY. Jesus, Katelyn, really? Six months? She's crazy.
And another of those couples consists of my brother and his now-fiancee, Ellie, which is SUPER exciting. I've been telling him for years it's about time for some nephews and nieces. Mostly joking there, but honestly, I'm SO excited for him. He's doing really well and Ellie is so sweet and awesome. She's in school to be a doctor and Seth just got his PhD in English and I'm so proud of him. Buh, I could probably rant about that for a while and also go on a tangent about how I TOTALLY don't see him often enough (which I don't, especially considering he lives about 30 seconds away from me), but I won't.
Dad's doing well. He's been with Karen for like ever and they're great. He's still socializing a lot and I'm really proud of him. We've become a lot closer and that really means a lot to me. He's amazing.
Ok, now I'm just getting all weepy and sentimental and it is not a good look for me.
Moving on to netflix and webcomics and many other wonderful things that I can enjoy now that I have the internet again. Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooobye.
I said in my last post that things are going well, and generally they are. I've just gotten a promotion at Massage Envy and I'm leaving my other job at Acadian Ambulance, which I really don't like. I have amazing people in my life and I'm feeling so much more comfortable in my skin than I ever have. I love myself and life is good.
On the other hand, I have SO MUCH STRESSFUL SHIT going on right now:
- I'm about to have a completely new job title at Massage Envy, one that hasn't even existed at our business before, so I'm going to have to not only learn new tasks and skills, but also figure out where I fall in terms of authority and all that fun stuff. It's really about time, and I'm so excited, but I'm having a lot of anxiety about it, partly because of everything else that's piled on me right now as well.
- They want me to go to training in New Orleans next week and I haven't been in that direction since my split with Christan. I know that isn't something big, but the last few times I've been there have not been good experiences and I'm stressed about it. Also the first training day is supposed to be my last day at Acadian, so I'm having to make up hours in advance to be off that day.
- Meg is moving to Slidell (on that same day, no less). This is something I haven't even really dealt with. We've known about it for a while and we just try not to talk about it because I don't know what I'm going to do. We've gotten so close and I've never had a friend quite like her. I think it sucks most because it isn't even her choice. They HAVE to move so that her fiancee, Matt, can have a job. It just sucks. I don't even know what else to say about it.
- Another Meg-related thing: they just finished the custody battle for Matt's daughter, Layla, and it didn't go well at all. They're only going to see her about 4 days out of the month, which is completely heartbreaking. I can't imagine being a parent and not being able to see my own child, or not allowing the other parent to see her (unless he was abusive or on drugs or whatever, of course, and Matt isn't). It's awful.
- Mom's getting weird again. One of her friends who's been sick for a while just got diagnosed with terminal cancer and mom's taking it really hard. I'm having trouble getting in touch with her and things are falling behind. I haven't had health insurance in months and she keeps saying she's going to deal with it, she seems to have lost my car note, which we need to give to this dude who's already bought the car from us, my house note isn't being paid, and ya know what... I miss my mom. It's gotten a lot better but I'm still fucking sick of having to force a relationship with her. I have to put on a happy face and play perfect daughter to even spend time with her because I don't want to stress her out when I know that she can't handle it. I understand that she's going through a lot. I understand that she has issues. But she's an adult, and if her 23 year old daughter, who, by the way, may have inherited some of those same issues, can deal with it, then so can she.
- See above notes about lack of health insurance, etc.
I know this entry is a bit of a downer, but I just had to vent this stuff somewhere. I haven't really been talking about any of it, and that doesn't work for me. Even if I don't find a solution or change anything, just talking helps.
Oh! AND, in the last couple of weeks I've found out about FOUR couples I know who are getting married. Katelyn wants me to be in (and help her plan) her wedding and she's trying to set it for FEBRUARY. Jesus, Katelyn, really? Six months? She's crazy.
And another of those couples consists of my brother and his now-fiancee, Ellie, which is SUPER exciting. I've been telling him for years it's about time for some nephews and nieces. Mostly joking there, but honestly, I'm SO excited for him. He's doing really well and Ellie is so sweet and awesome. She's in school to be a doctor and Seth just got his PhD in English and I'm so proud of him. Buh, I could probably rant about that for a while and also go on a tangent about how I TOTALLY don't see him often enough (which I don't, especially considering he lives about 30 seconds away from me), but I won't.
Dad's doing well. He's been with Karen for like ever and they're great. He's still socializing a lot and I'm really proud of him. We've become a lot closer and that really means a lot to me. He's amazing.
Ok, now I'm just getting all weepy and sentimental and it is not a good look for me.
Moving on to netflix and webcomics and many other wonderful things that I can enjoy now that I have the internet again. Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooobye.