first summer of 06 update
...so its already summer.. seniors graduated.. congrats to you guys by the way.. `N one more year for the juniors.. interestin how time just keeps goin.. `N theres nothin to stop it.. like i was at work.. `N it jus hit me.. wow another week is jus gon past by again.. its really interestin.. ppl jus come `N go.. it was as if i was sittin there watchin everyone in slow motion.. it was weird.. but i guess its suppose to be that way.. i guess the more time passes the more you appreciate things infront of you `N in life.. yeah im appreciating everything i have right now.. greatfull that i have everything i have ever wanted.. `N so glad and proud of the seniors that graduated.. its a weird day for me.. i guess seing all these mothers shoppin with their lil kids.. made me realise.. wow it wasnt that long ago when these women were in high school experiencing things im experiencing.. ...weird.. well so far my summer.. well its been ...uMm. well its goin by really fast.. i mean this week is almost over.. gosshhhh.. well i havent been really workin a lot.. but ive already worked 3 days this week.. so not bad.. then tues had the day to hang out wit my sis.. but i havent really hung out with my friends.. it just feels like its slipping.. but things happen so ill appreciate it.. well i havent really seen deenie.. tasha.. matt.. `N jus everybody.. kinda weird.. but thats ok.. again things happen.. lol im not gonna stress 'bout it.. its summer.. no stress for me.. its time to have fun.. well kinda?.. lol well family.. uMm.. my mother.. well she kinda upset.. sad.. i cant really tell.. she doesnt show us what she feels.. why?.. shes our mother.. she doesnt want us worryin.. even tho we already are worryin 'bout her.. but then again when shes upset like that she takes it out on us.. but thats ok.. she has no one else to go to... so my job.. is to jus absorb it like a sponge.. itll all b ok.. `N umm.. what else.. im jus goin on `N on `N on 'bout this.. but thats ok.. lol theres nothin else to do.. so its all good.. well uMm.. what was i sayin.. oh family.. well my sis.. well lately it seems like all she really cares 'bout is herself `N her new friends.. i have no problem wit it.. its jus lately shes been really avoiding our mom.. `N i kno that she needs us the most at this time.. but i cant really do anythin 'bout it.. coz i always have work.. `N whenever im at work shes home.. `N whenever im at home shes at work.. i dont see her as much anymore.. it makes me sad.. i mean is this what growing up all 'bout??.. i mean i dont kno if my sis realizes.. that she needs to stop bein selfish n start thinkin how her mother feels.. `N im here.. tryna b the one who tries solvin things.. jus over analyzes things `N over work herself.. im workin this much to save up for college.. but its impossible to.. i have to help wit the bills n everything.. but again thats the reason y i took that job.. to help.. but my sis suppose to help too.. but shes jus lazy these days.. i need to do somethin to make things balance again.. in my head at least.. but it jus gets so confusing.. lol thats ok.. ill get over it.. neways i dont kno what im talkin 'bout nemore... ok nxt subject.. relationship wit boys.. well things jus gets really confusing.. soo not even gon start on that.. lol so uMm.. actually i take back the whole change subject thing coz i really dont kno what to talk 'bout nemore... but yeahh.. thats it.. hopefully that was fun.. ??