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hMmm.. i dont kno whats goin on wit ppl these days.. i guess thats what happens when i leave durin lunch everyday xcept mondays `N weds.. and if i ever do stay.. i always end up jus hangin out wit matt.. well newayz.. ill jus tell you ppl who actually reads it 'bout my week or at least friday.. coz nothin really interestin been goin on ...well friday night.. which was yesterday.. well after school did absolutely nothin.. coz theres nothin to do at my house since errthings dead.. no tv.. no internet..i only had music.. which was ok.. it didnt really bother me much.. it gave me more time to think tho.. which was ok.. then later on 'round 5 or 6 matt came over.. lol.. yeah that was pretty chill.. we hung out.. `N talked.. `N laughed.. `N errthing else possible .. `N then that was that.. then today i hung out wit him again.. we played basketball.. i suck.. coz im such a girl.. i didnt feel like runnin .. i felt like a fat cow.. lol.. then i dont kno it was jus lotz of messin 'round instead of actually playin..but yeah it was fun.. i dont kno but i do always have fun wit him.. even tho i get annoyed `N pissed at him.. i kno i still have fun.. i guess we jus get along pretty good.. `N this same question keeps comming up.. like today it actually came up.. well its not really a question but it was more of somethin that someone says.. like my mom out of nowhere says "you gotta do somethin 'bout your BOYFRiEND.. coz blah blah blah".. then i go "hes not my BOYFRIEND!!!".. then later on michael goes "go give your GiRLFRiEND a hug" to matt.. `N we were jus both like "WHAT?! what girlfriend?!".. i mean is it really that weird to be still friends `N this close to him??.. i mean ppl say we act like were still goin out.. but to me it soo doesnt feel like it... im not as close to him as i was before.. i dont kno why i say that.. but its true... i mean yeah im gonna admit.. i wished that it never ended like that or just basically never ended at all..i dont kno.. i guess i havent really completely let go of everything.. theres times where i still want to go up to him `N jus kiss him.. i mean i could jus hug him everytime i see him.. lol that part is still the same.. but jus havin him there jus as a friend isnt enough.. i dont kno.. but yeah.. i guess i still want him back.. i dont kno.. someday it'll b over.. he'll jus b the past.. but for right now.. im just gonna b happy im still good friends wit him... but yeah this is my update for this week.. then nxt week ima update again when my cousin lets me use his lap top.. or if i getz my internet back.. but newho.. this is all for now..