Life is busy
... I'm not just avoiding you.
I made about 20%+ more on my last paycheck, which means I worked 20%+ more, which means I worked an average of 50+ hours a week in January. Not too terrible, I guess- though it doesn't count all the other crap I got done or unpaid hours. February's paycheck will be tight because it's a shorter month and because I used the rest of my annual leave up (when we take annual leave we don't get our overtime hours) among other things- but I was still so busy. I've finished up both of Lew's passports which we needed doing, and applied to my masters course.
I had an interview today for a job that I applied for on August 31st, 2015. I was told last week that I should have applied for it and that they had picked the new [person]. I said that I *HAD* applied, and that I was looked over again, so they rectified it, but I'm not convinced they'll really fully consider my application now. Honestly, I don't really mind- if I don't get the job I can still make an argument for the equal pay of that role due to other things I do outside my contracted role, and maybe move to a new unit. The new role means more responsibility on the unit and it may mean that I ruffle some previously-friendly feathers. If I get it, it will be very awkward. Everyone who interviewed for the position deserves it.
Mentally, I've been a bit all over the place. I keep myself busy to keep my brain distracted. It's a bad time of year for me. Lots of calendar anxiety. I am very emotionally exhausted most of the time, to a point of numbness and physical exhaustion. I'm probably not a great friend at times because of this- I become very introverted. I am a confident introvert, but I really need that lone recharge time where it's just me and my thoughts.
My neighbor keeps trying to guilt me into calling her, seeing her, always on the pretense of a favor or money or something she wants me to do for her. She gets annoyed that I work a lot and am unavailable on weekends or am just too tired to hang out in the evenings. I'm sorry, but that's not how you get my attention. Aside from that, she is generally not a fantastic friend and has burnt me in the past. On the other hand, one of my other new-wave non-work friends just wanted to see me. She understood that it took a while to arrange a time to hang out. Her recent spontaneous invitation over to her home for coffee was understanding of my non-traditional work schedule, and her offer for me to go with her to see movie (which thankfully I was able to do) was open and not desperate for a yes. I can get on board with that.
I made about 20%+ more on my last paycheck, which means I worked 20%+ more, which means I worked an average of 50+ hours a week in January. Not too terrible, I guess- though it doesn't count all the other crap I got done or unpaid hours. February's paycheck will be tight because it's a shorter month and because I used the rest of my annual leave up (when we take annual leave we don't get our overtime hours) among other things- but I was still so busy. I've finished up both of Lew's passports which we needed doing, and applied to my masters course.
I had an interview today for a job that I applied for on August 31st, 2015. I was told last week that I should have applied for it and that they had picked the new [person]. I said that I *HAD* applied, and that I was looked over again, so they rectified it, but I'm not convinced they'll really fully consider my application now. Honestly, I don't really mind- if I don't get the job I can still make an argument for the equal pay of that role due to other things I do outside my contracted role, and maybe move to a new unit. The new role means more responsibility on the unit and it may mean that I ruffle some previously-friendly feathers. If I get it, it will be very awkward. Everyone who interviewed for the position deserves it.
Mentally, I've been a bit all over the place. I keep myself busy to keep my brain distracted. It's a bad time of year for me. Lots of calendar anxiety. I am very emotionally exhausted most of the time, to a point of numbness and physical exhaustion. I'm probably not a great friend at times because of this- I become very introverted. I am a confident introvert, but I really need that lone recharge time where it's just me and my thoughts.
My neighbor keeps trying to guilt me into calling her, seeing her, always on the pretense of a favor or money or something she wants me to do for her. She gets annoyed that I work a lot and am unavailable on weekends or am just too tired to hang out in the evenings. I'm sorry, but that's not how you get my attention. Aside from that, she is generally not a fantastic friend and has burnt me in the past. On the other hand, one of my other new-wave non-work friends just wanted to see me. She understood that it took a while to arrange a time to hang out. Her recent spontaneous invitation over to her home for coffee was understanding of my non-traditional work schedule, and her offer for me to go with her to see movie (which thankfully I was able to do) was open and not desperate for a yes. I can get on board with that.