hmm.
i do a lot of ranting on lj. basically because thats my only real urge to use lj for.
anyway.
this has been an very interesting week. odd too, i should say.
i need to study for my written exam to get my permit wed. the fl driver manual is just so completely utterly B-O-R-I-N-G. sheesh.
this week, i learned a lot more about myself. hmm. had a good talk with mom, a lot closer with her now. realized angel is a total moron and that he isnt worth my time. uhmm what else. grandpa died yesterday. he was my only real reason for coming to visit fla. i had this feeling he was gonna die yesterday, and two hours later, i got the email from grams. humm. died peacefully, breathing just slowed down. glad he died, and that he died the way he did. he was sitting in his chair, not even able to move his fingers anymore. that's not living. ill just always remember him as a wonderful person, and hold who he was and his influence on me in my heart forever. 7:30 pm, july 27, 2004. ill remember that. humm. his death really made me recall Carpe Diem and how i really should take that to heart as i used to. In a good way, of course. hmm. what else to say? i felt i should update, and that it should have better content than this, but eh. lol.
same old hillary, eh?
getting old feelings back for an ex who i was with in what feels like another era. lol. whattttever.
talked to my goood friend meghan whos in belgium for the summer today. she's liking it, but still her and her crazy lil bro are fighting over any connection to the USA and seriously going insane for any piece of shitty ol americana.
swans r snobby and beautiful. baby swans, which i called swanlings, definitely look like ugly ducklings. they're gray and ugly as hell. swanlings are probably where the idea for the ugly duckling story came from. lol. "swanling" credit for the invention of the word to meghan.
well, ill be in cali soon. july 1, landing at SFO. my summer's pretty much planned out til end of aug. go back to fl for a week on aug 17, then on the 21 flyin to colo to hang with my girl barbie. damn, i miss that bitch. hahah.need a dose of her wondeful 'tude.
yay! seeing my girl shannon soon. erin too, maybe in a week or two. reba, mallory, leila, i still wanna see u guys sometime! jasmine i havent forgotten either! ill see her for sure. ahh itll be soo good to be back in cali.
anyways after colo.. hmm. i havent decided. maybe going to RI to see adri. wow i didnt realize its been sooooooo long since ive seen her, she WD from mssd in like... jan. in late aug, itll be like 7 months since ive seen her. DEFINITELY TOOO LONG! oops ill be out of cali at the wrong time, wont be seeing shawn. oh well.
I LIVE FOR SUMMERS. i cant wait til next summer, lmao. off to israel, austin tx, and lots of other places.
I'm gonna be a junior this fall. eh. so soon to finish hs. both a good and bad thing. alrite, its really a good thing, its just i dont wanna grow up and be stuck with more responsibilities than i am already, though its a needed thing, lol.
This fall, off to school, ohio, RIT, NYC, RI, FL, PA, the Carolinas, Canada. lol.
sheesh, i'm pretty much speechless, blathering on cuz i got nothing to say. think ill shut up.
ah. im off to watch a movie, sleep, then go to the beach tmw. Yayness.
later, yall.
anyway.
this has been an very interesting week. odd too, i should say.
i need to study for my written exam to get my permit wed. the fl driver manual is just so completely utterly B-O-R-I-N-G. sheesh.
this week, i learned a lot more about myself. hmm. had a good talk with mom, a lot closer with her now. realized angel is a total moron and that he isnt worth my time. uhmm what else. grandpa died yesterday. he was my only real reason for coming to visit fla. i had this feeling he was gonna die yesterday, and two hours later, i got the email from grams. humm. died peacefully, breathing just slowed down. glad he died, and that he died the way he did. he was sitting in his chair, not even able to move his fingers anymore. that's not living. ill just always remember him as a wonderful person, and hold who he was and his influence on me in my heart forever. 7:30 pm, july 27, 2004. ill remember that. humm. his death really made me recall Carpe Diem and how i really should take that to heart as i used to. In a good way, of course. hmm. what else to say? i felt i should update, and that it should have better content than this, but eh. lol.
same old hillary, eh?
getting old feelings back for an ex who i was with in what feels like another era. lol. whattttever.
talked to my goood friend meghan whos in belgium for the summer today. she's liking it, but still her and her crazy lil bro are fighting over any connection to the USA and seriously going insane for any piece of shitty ol americana.
swans r snobby and beautiful. baby swans, which i called swanlings, definitely look like ugly ducklings. they're gray and ugly as hell. swanlings are probably where the idea for the ugly duckling story came from. lol. "swanling" credit for the invention of the word to meghan.
well, ill be in cali soon. july 1, landing at SFO. my summer's pretty much planned out til end of aug. go back to fl for a week on aug 17, then on the 21 flyin to colo to hang with my girl barbie. damn, i miss that bitch. hahah.need a dose of her wondeful 'tude.
yay! seeing my girl shannon soon. erin too, maybe in a week or two. reba, mallory, leila, i still wanna see u guys sometime! jasmine i havent forgotten either! ill see her for sure. ahh itll be soo good to be back in cali.
anyways after colo.. hmm. i havent decided. maybe going to RI to see adri. wow i didnt realize its been sooooooo long since ive seen her, she WD from mssd in like... jan. in late aug, itll be like 7 months since ive seen her. DEFINITELY TOOO LONG! oops ill be out of cali at the wrong time, wont be seeing shawn. oh well.
I LIVE FOR SUMMERS. i cant wait til next summer, lmao. off to israel, austin tx, and lots of other places.
I'm gonna be a junior this fall. eh. so soon to finish hs. both a good and bad thing. alrite, its really a good thing, its just i dont wanna grow up and be stuck with more responsibilities than i am already, though its a needed thing, lol.
This fall, off to school, ohio, RIT, NYC, RI, FL, PA, the Carolinas, Canada. lol.
sheesh, i'm pretty much speechless, blathering on cuz i got nothing to say. think ill shut up.
ah. im off to watch a movie, sleep, then go to the beach tmw. Yayness.
later, yall.