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[shloppyjoes]

it's 6 am, i got in not too long ago from district. I am exausted, but I cannot fall asleep. Drugs do that to you.
my mind is a huge mess right now. I have discovered a new part of me, a part that wants to be normal and part of the masses. My rebellious side wants me to counteract those feelings.

But don't we all eventually just succumb anyway?

random thoughts.
I enjoy J.P.'s company.. but mainly when he is sober.
I hate myself for being so immature sometimes. I act like this high and mighty fucking princess... but my shit stinks just like everyone else's.

I am also pissed that I cannot talk to someone I am really interested in. That ticks me off so badly...

I never have problems getting guys, the only hard part is getting the ones I like.

I am so intimidated right now, and I think that is what attracts me so strongly.
sigh.
random rambles.
tomorrow I am going to revolver with andie, sans valyn. Be afraid, be very afraid.

Maybe i should skip sleep tonight and just think all day about the random vague blur that my life has become as of late.
I really want to settle down.