nat quals
this weekend was such a rush of different emotions. in retrospect, i think that il think of a few incidents that defined the weekend. the biology thing obviously was very...dissapointing. luckily my parents actually didnt explode as much as i expected them to. and so after talking to teachers i now fully realize just how hard april will be. in seven days i will be in new york city, in a hotel in times square...and as exciting as that is...it comes at the cost of missing 5 straight school days, at least 3 tests and countless work. it will be ok though. a teacher today was talking about optimism and it just made me realize how important that feeling is. because at best, optimism is one thing that allows people to behave when they cant think about anything but anger and sadness. and so im optimistic, optimistic about life after ap's and even highschool. and then of course theres this situation. but time will work things out. im sure of that. these next two months are so important...i just hope i dont blow whatever oppurtunities i have left.