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My patience with other people is about done today. I feel this un-bending need to get away from everyone else, lock my door and ask them to please leave me alone.
I have days like this, where the inane chatter of other people just invades my skull, and the first thing I do is look to get away from them to make it stop. Usually I go for a walk, take Ebony to the pond, turn off my cell phone, etc. I felt it when I woke up, but pressure from everyone in the family had me going to a 4th of July gathering that I really did'nt feel up to going to, and then once I got there and saw thirty or so people that I never met and did'nt want to get to know, I just kinda shut down and stayed away from everyone. Sat inside the entire time, family members walking in and telling me to go out and get some food, and then asking me what I wanted that they'd get it for me.
What really got to me? The notion that someone outside asked "Where's Brant?" and then it turned into a big discussion about me not going out and mingling because of all the people; yeah announcing it to all 30 or so strangers makes me feel more comfortable to come out and mingle.
I came home shortly after that, and I'm hoping to be left alone for the rest of the night. I almost blew off on alot of people today because they would'nt let me alone, like abunch of kids prodding a turtle with a stick. I'm glad I did'nt blow off, but I was direct and told my brother's fiance that me showing up was a waste of time and patience.
Now to go relax and just let my brain melt.
I have days like this, where the inane chatter of other people just invades my skull, and the first thing I do is look to get away from them to make it stop. Usually I go for a walk, take Ebony to the pond, turn off my cell phone, etc. I felt it when I woke up, but pressure from everyone in the family had me going to a 4th of July gathering that I really did'nt feel up to going to, and then once I got there and saw thirty or so people that I never met and did'nt want to get to know, I just kinda shut down and stayed away from everyone. Sat inside the entire time, family members walking in and telling me to go out and get some food, and then asking me what I wanted that they'd get it for me.
What really got to me? The notion that someone outside asked "Where's Brant?" and then it turned into a big discussion about me not going out and mingling because of all the people; yeah announcing it to all 30 or so strangers makes me feel more comfortable to come out and mingle.
I came home shortly after that, and I'm hoping to be left alone for the rest of the night. I almost blew off on alot of people today because they would'nt let me alone, like abunch of kids prodding a turtle with a stick. I'm glad I did'nt blow off, but I was direct and told my brother's fiance that me showing up was a waste of time and patience.
Now to go relax and just let my brain melt.