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This last week has been quite a journey. I've been missing my computer for what seems like forever and I finally bought a new one yesterday. It's so cute! but that's not really the point of this entry.
Lots has been happening on the inside... if you don't mind me being cliche for a moment... even though I despise it...
Boys have been on my mind a lot lately. Not in the way you think though - I've just been realizing that I dont know how to relate to guys in a way that is beneficial on either side. Ever since I can remember, boys have been a game to me. I decided long ago that I could control them by the way I acted.. which has been true to an extent but it's not something that i'm proud of anymore and its something that i've done (i'm finding out) because I've been so wounded by people in this world. i need to change. Here's the thing though- i'm not capable of that change because -let's face it- i'm human --> but Jesus is capable of tearing me down and fixing me inside! yay!
I'm reading a book called Captivating and if you haven't read it you should because it honestly has the potential to change your life. It talks all about how beautiful we are to God and how much of that beauty was lost in the fall and how the world perverts it. So right now I'm stuck in the middle of all the crap spinning in my head about how I've been wounded and I'm really just getting to the core of things and I know that God wants to heal me which amazes me.
Also - men of Campus Crusade - you are amazing guys. I've never felt more at home among a group of men and I hardly even know them. I love how much they care about the girls and really look out for the girls' best interests in the eyes of God. Talk about guarding your hearts! Love! I can't wait to come back next year and get to know them better - even getting to know them the rest of this year... but aht's almost over - sadness...
oh! I got the job as an RA this summer in Austin for ABT. I can't wait. I think it's going to be such an amazing opportunity. God totally knows what he's doing - I have no idea - but that's fine for now ... I'm sure I'll find out when it's time!
Night! Love ya'll!
Lots has been happening on the inside... if you don't mind me being cliche for a moment... even though I despise it...
Boys have been on my mind a lot lately. Not in the way you think though - I've just been realizing that I dont know how to relate to guys in a way that is beneficial on either side. Ever since I can remember, boys have been a game to me. I decided long ago that I could control them by the way I acted.. which has been true to an extent but it's not something that i'm proud of anymore and its something that i've done (i'm finding out) because I've been so wounded by people in this world. i need to change. Here's the thing though- i'm not capable of that change because -let's face it- i'm human --> but Jesus is capable of tearing me down and fixing me inside! yay!
I'm reading a book called Captivating and if you haven't read it you should because it honestly has the potential to change your life. It talks all about how beautiful we are to God and how much of that beauty was lost in the fall and how the world perverts it. So right now I'm stuck in the middle of all the crap spinning in my head about how I've been wounded and I'm really just getting to the core of things and I know that God wants to heal me which amazes me.
Also - men of Campus Crusade - you are amazing guys. I've never felt more at home among a group of men and I hardly even know them. I love how much they care about the girls and really look out for the girls' best interests in the eyes of God. Talk about guarding your hearts! Love! I can't wait to come back next year and get to know them better - even getting to know them the rest of this year... but aht's almost over - sadness...
oh! I got the job as an RA this summer in Austin for ABT. I can't wait. I think it's going to be such an amazing opportunity. God totally knows what he's doing - I have no idea - but that's fine for now ... I'm sure I'll find out when it's time!
Night! Love ya'll!