why does it always feel like im caught in the undertoe?
*People are doing all the wrong things in life for the wrong reasons. The more people i'm around the more i realize how messed up this world is. The older I get the more I feel like i'm one of the only ones thinking outside the box..There aren't many good people out there.
The only ones who won't screw you over are the ones without opposable thumbs.
I don't mean to make this entry so depressing, but some people write when there is soo much going on in one's head.. my fairy tale lasted 2 years and now...... well I don't even know what now is. I don't want to be in "now". Whatever this miserable part of my life is called. When things go wrong, everything else tends to go wrong... im not even going to begin to list..
The one thing that I still had were the horses... but even that has been cut in half... We sold Cal and now I dont have a horse to show this year... I didn't show last year b/c of everything that happened w/ my family.. so what was suppose to be my first year AOTR was non existent, and now my 2nd year seems to be going in the same direction. I have not missed one show season my whole life...I only have Fargrant, who technically isnt even mine... wow... I can't even make it out to the horse shows anymore because of my work schedule...
I'm tired of ranting. I hope I can fall asleep... I never sleep good anymore.
I wish something good would happen... or something at all would happen...
The only ones who won't screw you over are the ones without opposable thumbs.
I don't mean to make this entry so depressing, but some people write when there is soo much going on in one's head.. my fairy tale lasted 2 years and now...... well I don't even know what now is. I don't want to be in "now". Whatever this miserable part of my life is called. When things go wrong, everything else tends to go wrong... im not even going to begin to list..
The one thing that I still had were the horses... but even that has been cut in half... We sold Cal and now I dont have a horse to show this year... I didn't show last year b/c of everything that happened w/ my family.. so what was suppose to be my first year AOTR was non existent, and now my 2nd year seems to be going in the same direction. I have not missed one show season my whole life...I only have Fargrant, who technically isnt even mine... wow... I can't even make it out to the horse shows anymore because of my work schedule...
I'm tired of ranting. I hope I can fall asleep... I never sleep good anymore.
I wish something good would happen... or something at all would happen...