in which i get sappy
I'm still really shaken by this, but I'm going to try to move on. I'm applying to universities (isn't it funny that a degree/full university education was my fallback?) and I'm looking at one that will let me major in English and minor in arts.
Um. Interesting factoid - if I do have an LD in math (i was told that it would be surprising if i didn't - my father and grandfather are both dyslexic, and on my mom's side i have an autistic cousin and it's likely that my grandfather also has autism or some form of it) then the government will give me a considerable sunm for continuing to pursue education. In short, I'll get enough cash to afford a fucking amazing laptop.
So. UPEI is an option, as is St. Francis Xavier University - which is three hours away. Maybe, MAYBE, I'll end up falling in love with university education and I'll decide against trying Video Game Art and Design. Maybe I'll hate it. Who knows. I'm going to apply to a course in 3D animation as well. Anything I can do, I will do. I'll get a fucking massive portfolio and get some courses under my belt.
I just need to keep telling myself that this isn't the end of the world, I've still got a chance to get in, and if I don't then I just need to move on.
It's kind of funny, though. I always feel like I'm being strong for other people and not for myself. I feel obligated to pick myself back up off the ground so no one else has to. But honestly, if it weren't for you guys, I think I'd go insane. I know all I tend to do is complain on this damn thing, but it's just nice to know that someone out there can empathize with me and that I've always got someone to talk to.
Kyio, Silvie, I know I probably drive you two half up the wall when I get on a complaining spree, but I'm so glad you're there when I need you. KP, Shin, Kyo - you guy always know just how to make me feel better. I know I haven't known you guys super long, but I count all of you among my best friends.
Have fun wiping the sap off your clothes. <3
Um. Interesting factoid - if I do have an LD in math (i was told that it would be surprising if i didn't - my father and grandfather are both dyslexic, and on my mom's side i have an autistic cousin and it's likely that my grandfather also has autism or some form of it) then the government will give me a considerable sunm for continuing to pursue education. In short, I'll get enough cash to afford a fucking amazing laptop.
So. UPEI is an option, as is St. Francis Xavier University - which is three hours away. Maybe, MAYBE, I'll end up falling in love with university education and I'll decide against trying Video Game Art and Design. Maybe I'll hate it. Who knows. I'm going to apply to a course in 3D animation as well. Anything I can do, I will do. I'll get a fucking massive portfolio and get some courses under my belt.
I just need to keep telling myself that this isn't the end of the world, I've still got a chance to get in, and if I don't then I just need to move on.
It's kind of funny, though. I always feel like I'm being strong for other people and not for myself. I feel obligated to pick myself back up off the ground so no one else has to. But honestly, if it weren't for you guys, I think I'd go insane. I know all I tend to do is complain on this damn thing, but it's just nice to know that someone out there can empathize with me and that I've always got someone to talk to.
Kyio, Silvie, I know I probably drive you two half up the wall when I get on a complaining spree, but I'm so glad you're there when I need you. KP, Shin, Kyo - you guy always know just how to make me feel better. I know I haven't known you guys super long, but I count all of you among my best friends.
Have fun wiping the sap off your clothes. <3