One More God Damn Thing
I've tried really hard to not post. I can't continue to whine about the issues, because it just makes enduring them almost worse, but today I may have found the straw that busted the fuck out of my back and will leave me paralyzed and pissed off for the rest of the days I have here...
January 2003: testosterone too high, take this pill until the day you freaking die.
April 2007: too fat, have surgery, go on two year break.
February 2009: break over, graduate to bigger and better drugs, continue to take this pill until you freaking die.
March 2009: hey you're making eggs, but they're not forming fully, try this drug
April 2009: try one more time, left side's not working
May 2009: Ok, increase the dose, only getting one viable follicle
June 2009: rinse repeat
July 2009: rinse repeat
August 2009: increase dose, no Luteinizing Hormone, take this shot, fallopian tubes probably blocked
September 2009: hey let's do the same shit, but find out you have hostile cervical mucous, even if you do get the spermies and stuff in there, your body is killing them.
October 2009: we're going to give you a round of shots and inseminate you after we find out if your fallopian tubes are open. Hey we need to cancel that, hubby is going out of town and wants to be there. Try alternative remedy, still no dice.
November 2009: Back on track, checking the tubes on tuesday the 10th. Get a call Monday the 9th letting me know that I haven't met my deductible and it's going to cost me an additional $500!! Do I have that? Fuck no I don't! I have that, but that was being saved for the drugs and the insemination. Can't do one and not the other! Solution offered? None.
How much does it take, how many different things have to be wrong before I finally say "fuck it" and give the fuck up?
January 2003: testosterone too high, take this pill until the day you freaking die.
April 2007: too fat, have surgery, go on two year break.
February 2009: break over, graduate to bigger and better drugs, continue to take this pill until you freaking die.
March 2009: hey you're making eggs, but they're not forming fully, try this drug
April 2009: try one more time, left side's not working
May 2009: Ok, increase the dose, only getting one viable follicle
June 2009: rinse repeat
July 2009: rinse repeat
August 2009: increase dose, no Luteinizing Hormone, take this shot, fallopian tubes probably blocked
September 2009: hey let's do the same shit, but find out you have hostile cervical mucous, even if you do get the spermies and stuff in there, your body is killing them.
October 2009: we're going to give you a round of shots and inseminate you after we find out if your fallopian tubes are open. Hey we need to cancel that, hubby is going out of town and wants to be there. Try alternative remedy, still no dice.
November 2009: Back on track, checking the tubes on tuesday the 10th. Get a call Monday the 9th letting me know that I haven't met my deductible and it's going to cost me an additional $500!! Do I have that? Fuck no I don't! I have that, but that was being saved for the drugs and the insemination. Can't do one and not the other! Solution offered? None.
How much does it take, how many different things have to be wrong before I finally say "fuck it" and give the fuck up?