Worried and Confused
The New Year is almost here. And again I'm confused.
Confused about so many, many things.
The funeral I've been attending for the past week is finally over. Part of me is sad. I don't want it to end. I got to hang out with some wonderful people and be there for them in this rough time. I also got to get roaring drunk several times which I never mind. ^_^
I'm afraid I won't get to see my new friends again. None of them have cell phones except for Y so I don't know what I'll do.
I'm also extremely worried. I have developed a slight attachment to a friend of mine nicknamed Fido. He and I share a lot of common interests and he helped me out a lot when I wasn't sure what to do culture-wise at the funeral. Unfortunately, I didn't get to see him very much. I mostly got stuck with Y, E, or Fuji. I thought I had a slight crush on Fuji before but that quickly diminished. I just don't think I'm anywhere near ready for any kind of relationship. Which is fine. I just hope I don't lose my newfound friendships. Especially Fido...I know he has tomorrow off work so hopefully he'll find a way to call me.
By the way, anyone who loves video games has got to try Okami. Fido told me about it so I went out and bought it. Man, is it awesome! It has the most beautiful cinematics I have ever seen, all done in Japanese watercolors. I love it! Thanks, Fi!
On a more sober note, I have been contemplating the past year and realize that it has been one of my worst ever. I sincerely hope the new year will be better and I will end it with my head held high and pride swelling my chest. It's certainly not that way this year...
Anyways...I think I'm going to go take a sleeping pill and try to knock out. I'm so lonely right now that my chest aches. Or that may be the cold that I've developed by spending a week up all night outside in the cold and wet. Who knows?...Who cares?...
Confused about so many, many things.
The funeral I've been attending for the past week is finally over. Part of me is sad. I don't want it to end. I got to hang out with some wonderful people and be there for them in this rough time. I also got to get roaring drunk several times which I never mind. ^_^
I'm afraid I won't get to see my new friends again. None of them have cell phones except for Y so I don't know what I'll do.
I'm also extremely worried. I have developed a slight attachment to a friend of mine nicknamed Fido. He and I share a lot of common interests and he helped me out a lot when I wasn't sure what to do culture-wise at the funeral. Unfortunately, I didn't get to see him very much. I mostly got stuck with Y, E, or Fuji. I thought I had a slight crush on Fuji before but that quickly diminished. I just don't think I'm anywhere near ready for any kind of relationship. Which is fine. I just hope I don't lose my newfound friendships. Especially Fido...I know he has tomorrow off work so hopefully he'll find a way to call me.
By the way, anyone who loves video games has got to try Okami. Fido told me about it so I went out and bought it. Man, is it awesome! It has the most beautiful cinematics I have ever seen, all done in Japanese watercolors. I love it! Thanks, Fi!
On a more sober note, I have been contemplating the past year and realize that it has been one of my worst ever. I sincerely hope the new year will be better and I will end it with my head held high and pride swelling my chest. It's certainly not that way this year...
Anyways...I think I'm going to go take a sleeping pill and try to knock out. I'm so lonely right now that my chest aches. Or that may be the cold that I've developed by spending a week up all night outside in the cold and wet. Who knows?...Who cares?...