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so tonight was dress rehearsal, it went fine. kind of surreal that it's here already... BUT THAT WASNT THE INTERSTING PART OF THE NIGHT
i had THE most awkward dinner. THE. started off...
i just deleted all that i wrote. yeah. oh well. moral of story is i hate caitlyn when shes drunk but don't hate caitlyn and wish she would just treat me like a normal person. and that i love sierra TO DEEEEEEEEATh. i love luke to life. and ryder is cool. haha... his friend aiden seems like a really cool guy too. he's in a student ballet company in SF and i talked to him about it for a bit.
Discussion with aiden brought back old thoughts... sometimes i dont think that i am getting the best training that i could be at CSULB. don't get me wrong the dance program is amazing and i love the people there. but sometimes i really feel like i should be doing something a lot more concentrated. like a student company or a conservatory or some shit. but in talking to him i realized that i should feel that way if i'm trying to get into a ballet company WHICH IM NOT. no way. well, i shouldn't say no way i just feel like i'm too late starting to ever get there, plus it's just not what i want to do. He was telling me about some really amazing hip hop "companies", basically just pro hip hop groups that just go on tour and shit. THAT is something i'm am completely interested in. but i really don't feel like i'm up to par with the best when it comes to hip hop. i need more of it. i've only taken hip hop from MSD and i wouldn't really call that hip hop... it's more like cheer stuff... or just really reallly old school. the style these days is so fucking different and i need to be doing it. which is why i really hope to get into PAC MODERN which is an AMAZING hip hop goup at school. i would grow so much.
i can't really see myself being in a modern company so that leaves.......
BROADWAY - i should start singing a lot more, but there are a lot more all dancing shows around
HIP HOP COMPANY - i need to get into PAC
TAP SHINDIG - do they have tap companies?... i'm sure... maybe you'll see me in TAP DOGS hhee
BACK UP DANCER - childhood dream, just need to be at the right audition at the right time
i just want to be able to survive off of dancing ... well performing, i like teaching and all but i'll save that till i can't perform anymore. i dont' want to get stuck though... i dont' know i REALLY RELALY RELALY want to tour... travel... get paid a salary and per day
i'm really interested where my life will be in 5 years. hopefully not dead.
i had THE most awkward dinner. THE. started off...
i just deleted all that i wrote. yeah. oh well. moral of story is i hate caitlyn when shes drunk but don't hate caitlyn and wish she would just treat me like a normal person. and that i love sierra TO DEEEEEEEEATh. i love luke to life. and ryder is cool. haha... his friend aiden seems like a really cool guy too. he's in a student ballet company in SF and i talked to him about it for a bit.
Discussion with aiden brought back old thoughts... sometimes i dont think that i am getting the best training that i could be at CSULB. don't get me wrong the dance program is amazing and i love the people there. but sometimes i really feel like i should be doing something a lot more concentrated. like a student company or a conservatory or some shit. but in talking to him i realized that i should feel that way if i'm trying to get into a ballet company WHICH IM NOT. no way. well, i shouldn't say no way i just feel like i'm too late starting to ever get there, plus it's just not what i want to do. He was telling me about some really amazing hip hop "companies", basically just pro hip hop groups that just go on tour and shit. THAT is something i'm am completely interested in. but i really don't feel like i'm up to par with the best when it comes to hip hop. i need more of it. i've only taken hip hop from MSD and i wouldn't really call that hip hop... it's more like cheer stuff... or just really reallly old school. the style these days is so fucking different and i need to be doing it. which is why i really hope to get into PAC MODERN which is an AMAZING hip hop goup at school. i would grow so much.
i can't really see myself being in a modern company so that leaves.......
BROADWAY - i should start singing a lot more, but there are a lot more all dancing shows around
HIP HOP COMPANY - i need to get into PAC
TAP SHINDIG - do they have tap companies?... i'm sure... maybe you'll see me in TAP DOGS hhee
BACK UP DANCER - childhood dream, just need to be at the right audition at the right time
i just want to be able to survive off of dancing ... well performing, i like teaching and all but i'll save that till i can't perform anymore. i dont' want to get stuck though... i dont' know i REALLY RELALY RELALY want to tour... travel... get paid a salary and per day
i'm really interested where my life will be in 5 years. hopefully not dead.