And now it was all about wanting to be like mommy, making mommy proud, being a well-mannered girl, and all the things that Rei had overkilled herself to be when she once had been an unhappy, unhappy girl.
Suddenly, Rei realized that she was crying. She hadn't even registered when it had begun. But now she was sobbing, snorting phlegm, and tears were streaming over her face. "Ah, at that time of pregnancy, I was very emotional, too," said Makoto sympathetically. "No!" sobbed Rei. Okay, she yelled. She shouldn't yell. She wanted her friends to understand this one. She tried to explain through her sobs. "It's just that I love them so," she blurted out. "You have all these amazing stories about your daughters to tell, and it's always about how cute and adorable and pretty they are, and how they always want to be like mommy, and how they are so much like you, and how they resemble you, and how people talk about inheritance and female lineage and beauty and power and all that. And I can't compete with that. I don't have a cute daughter, I don't have cute stories. My kids aren't princesses. They're shitennou-shaped agents of chaos, and I know how everyone says how they're such a wild bunch. I'll probably never have stories about ruffled aprons and lacy dresses, and sometimes I feel like I'm raising a horde of orcs when I talk to you, but I'm so happy to have them. I know I'm always telling you I want at least one little girl, but it's bullshit. I wouldn't trade any of my boys in for a little girl." "Of course not," agreed everyone, but Rei found that a bit lame, except probably for Usagi who genuinely loved the boys' adventures. Rei still couldn't stop crying, and the words just poured out of her like her tears. "Every day, I sit at the table and look around and think how incredible lucky I am. I've never laughed so much in my life. I've never been loved so much in my life. I've never had so many happy thoughts. I love my orc horde! I wanted them all, I love them, and I'll never stop loving them!" Now Usagi was crying, too, taking Rei into one of her tight hugs. "Of course you love them," sobbed Usagi. "They're wonderful!" And Minako who didn't easily cry grinned her most lopsided grin. "Don't forget that we all have a chief orc at home and that our pretty little princesses have a ton of orc blood." Now Rei laughed and cried at the same time, and hiccuped on top of it. "Speak for yourself, my man is flawless," protested Makoto. "For an orc," grinned Minako. "I don't know, Zoisite always struck me more as the Yeti type," snickered Ami. They laughed the whole afternoon like they were silly teenagers again. And when Usagi came up with another box of chocolate, Rei even let the others have some. Provided the told a story of parental embarassment first, and it turned out they could do that all very well.
- the end -
A/N: I know that it is kind of weird to write about a mother in the defensive posision because she has sons when it's the other way round almost everywhere in the world. But this story has a bit of a background. Lately, there have been posts popping up on tumblr that celebrate the extreme gender segregation in Sailor Moon - boys on one side, girls on the other with little to no interaction between sides - as a great feminist thing. Oh, well. Now I'm old enough to remember the times before Sailor Moon and Buffy, and how disgustingly normal woman bashing was the moment a woman gained strength. But I'll never be comfortable with the segregated worlds solution, which made me think that this could be one of the reasons I love Senshi-Shitennou stories - and besides, where do the little boys in Crystal Tokyo come from? The stork? Or perhaps I just think it would be bizarrely funny for Rei to have the maximum shitennou-shaped male experience after living life among females in PGSM ;)
Yes, I was thinking of christmas candles when I wrote this. I was also thinking fire-proof living-room ;) Hehe, I'm glad that this is one of the few things that I only remotely based on kids I know and took it more in the Senshi of Fire direction instead ;)
And now it was all about wanting to be like mommy, making mommy proud, being a well-mannered girl, and all the things that Rei had overkilled herself to be when she once had been an unhappy, unhappy girl.
Suddenly, Rei realized that she was crying. She hadn't even registered when it had begun. But now she was sobbing, snorting phlegm, and tears were streaming over her face.
"Ah, at that time of pregnancy, I was very emotional, too," said Makoto sympathetically.
"No!" sobbed Rei. Okay, she yelled. She shouldn't yell. She wanted her friends to understand this one. She tried to explain through her sobs.
"It's just that I love them so," she blurted out. "You have all these amazing stories about your daughters to tell, and it's always about how cute and adorable and pretty they are, and how they always want to be like mommy, and how they are so much like you, and how they resemble you, and how people talk about inheritance and female lineage and beauty and power and all that. And I can't compete with that. I don't have a cute daughter, I don't have cute stories. My kids aren't princesses. They're shitennou-shaped agents of chaos, and I know how everyone says how they're such a wild bunch. I'll probably never have stories about ruffled aprons and lacy dresses, and sometimes I feel like I'm raising a horde of orcs when I talk to you, but I'm so happy to have them. I know I'm always telling you I want at least one little girl, but it's bullshit. I wouldn't trade any of my boys in for a little girl."
"Of course not," agreed everyone, but Rei found that a bit lame, except probably for Usagi who genuinely loved the boys' adventures.
Rei still couldn't stop crying, and the words just poured out of her like her tears.
"Every day, I sit at the table and look around and think how incredible lucky I am. I've never laughed so much in my life. I've never been loved so much in my life. I've never had so many happy thoughts. I love my orc horde! I wanted them all, I love them, and I'll never stop loving them!"
Now Usagi was crying, too, taking Rei into one of her tight hugs.
"Of course you love them," sobbed Usagi. "They're wonderful!"
And Minako who didn't easily cry grinned her most lopsided grin. "Don't forget that we all have a chief orc at home and that our pretty little princesses have a ton of orc blood."
Now Rei laughed and cried at the same time, and hiccuped on top of it.
"Speak for yourself, my man is flawless," protested Makoto.
"For an orc," grinned Minako.
"I don't know, Zoisite always struck me more as the Yeti type," snickered Ami.
They laughed the whole afternoon like they were silly teenagers again. And when Usagi came up with another box of chocolate, Rei even let the others have some. Provided the told a story of parental embarassment first, and it turned out they could do that all very well.
- the end -
A/N: I know that it is kind of weird to write about a mother in the defensive posision because she has sons when it's the other way round almost everywhere in the world. But this story has a bit of a background.
Lately, there have been posts popping up on tumblr that celebrate the extreme gender segregation in Sailor Moon - boys on one side, girls on the other with little to no interaction between sides - as a great feminist thing.
Oh, well. Now I'm old enough to remember the times before Sailor Moon and Buffy, and how disgustingly normal woman bashing was the moment a woman gained strength. But I'll never be comfortable with the segregated worlds solution, which made me think that this could be one of the reasons I love Senshi-Shitennou stories - and besides, where do the little boys in Crystal Tokyo come from? The stork?
Or perhaps I just think it would be bizarrely funny for Rei to have the maximum shitennou-shaped male experience after living life among females in PGSM ;)
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Holidays in her house must be adventurous!
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