this post was too serious so i added some silliness
i'm so fucking scared for tonight. i hate being unprepared yet i always am and it's just the stares, yanno? she calls your name to present and everyone turns to look at you. and i'm just not ready and then you feel like a fucking loser and it all in my head, right? I know that. They don't care. The teacher doesn't care. It's all on me. I know that.
and that's probably my biggest issue. I know that I'm not as smart as I like to make myself seem. I'm not as fun, happy, crazy or laid-back as I try to come off as. It's not a lie. I am smart. I am fun (to a degree). I am happy and crazy and I'm ridiculously laid-back. But it's amplified to a level that isn't always what it actually is.
They don't know all that. They just see what I show them. and ugh, idk. I'm just freaking out, man. D: D: D:
6 o'clock comes around and it's like:
DOOM
and I go from:
in less than a second.
and then the teacher comes in and i'm like:
and I feel like:
and on the inside I'm like:
i'm probably gonna be using this gif a lot in the next week. just so ya'll know.
and that's probably my biggest issue. I know that I'm not as smart as I like to make myself seem. I'm not as fun, happy, crazy or laid-back as I try to come off as. It's not a lie. I am smart. I am fun (to a degree). I am happy and crazy and I'm ridiculously laid-back. But it's amplified to a level that isn't always what it actually is.
They don't know all that. They just see what I show them. and ugh, idk. I'm just freaking out, man. D: D: D:
6 o'clock comes around and it's like:
DOOM
and I go from:
in less than a second.
and then the teacher comes in and i'm like:
and I feel like:
and on the inside I'm like:
i'm probably gonna be using this gif a lot in the next week. just so ya'll know.