Summer oh-five
-Went to Ithaca for the last two weekends.
I love love love it there. I wish I was living there. I can't explain it other than it's just the whole combination- the gestalt of the natural area, the people and the social environment. I think it feels a bit more infinite, certainly less limiting, and I love when I meet new people there because I usually like them. It makes me happy..er.
-I am thinking seriously about becoming a professor.
I'm sure that I'm going to have to be in a place that continually inspires me intellectually and creatively, and a good collegetown and working with people who actually want to learn is just that for me.
However, I just as likely could do a job that requires no mental or literal take-home work, and not challenge myself in any way. I could do something unremarkable because it gives me a paycheck and has to be done. I doubt this will happen though. But being in an authority position is weird for me, and I'm actually not good at teaching. I'm exploring this with my new job and it's so strange. I've come to understand that there's a certain level of bullshit you have to know you're full of, but not let that show.
-I worked second shift for the first time in my life, on top of a job in the mornings. Just for a week. It was actually pretty cool, if it tuckered me out. Everyone there is really nice, and working nights is actually more relaxed than doing days at the same place. Though the day people are great as well.
-I like my voice much better when it's speaking Spanish.
(American) English is such an unattractive language in general, though having a lovely accent can help. I do not have one of those. People who do are awesome.
-My hands are so-very-colorfully stained and look permanently dirty (but they're quite clean, I assure you.) I don't care, and actually kinda like it. And I like working with kids, and this whole being forced into an adult position AND being always creative is challenging and good for me.
-I hope Alex and Becca had fun in Ithaca. I did not know Nabokov lived here, or that he lived here in 3408234 different houses, apparently. I felt bad that I didn't get to hang out with them more, that weekend was a bit booked. A lot of people to see, and it was fun. Hung out with Bogdan and Frederick too, went to Stewart Park and played/ate with more people. Good weekend.
-If I didn't mention it before, I had a lot of fun hanging out with Russ and Branden before they left for opposite sides of the country. We did a little bit of what we should do in the summer, and it's about time. Some year I'll develop the photos. I love them both, and hope they're having a great time on their respective coasts. Good for them.
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I need to get my laptop fixed within the next month. I would prefer to have a pal do it. There's money in it for you. This is very important.
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I'm glad for every single person I have met lately.
Sometimes I was getting kinda down about all the jobs I applied for and didn't get, particularly because I felt some could have been done by a retarded monkey, so I certainly would have been qualified. Others I was really psyched to do because I felt that I would be good for it and it for me. But things work out, as they tend to do, and I've had some really good experiences as things have panned out. I guess it's good that I didn't get the orientation job at IC, because I've gotten to know more people in Binghamton that I probably wouldn't have otherwise. I've worked with some truly diverse and interesting people, if for a short time, and I'm glad for that. I like being able to go to the First Fridays in Binghamton as well. I've randomly met a handful of new people here and there, and that's pretty cool too. It makes me feel a lot less like this summer is a vapid hole of time between semesters.
I've also noticed that I seem to have met quite a number of people lately that are either from another country or have visited some really diverse places around the world, and many that are at least bilingual. And everyone encourages me to go to Amsterdam next Spring. I'm really excited, I think it's going to be amazing for me. I hope so at least, and that's assuming I get accepted and can swing it. But that's not the point. The point is how cool it's been to talk to people about living in or visiting Cuba, Ghana, Iceland, Italy, Amsterdam, France, Vietnam, Mexico, etc etc. I know that I have to do these sort of things with my life.
Okay, the end. Less than a month until the festival in CT and then coming right back to Ithaca. Yay for music and good times in new places, yay for being back where I want to be, yay for living in a Garden apartment, no yay for the coming work that I'm becoming too lazy for. I need to get my applications done for my volunteer job next year, I'm looking forward to that as well.
Love you all, take care.
I love love love it there. I wish I was living there. I can't explain it other than it's just the whole combination- the gestalt of the natural area, the people and the social environment. I think it feels a bit more infinite, certainly less limiting, and I love when I meet new people there because I usually like them. It makes me happy..er.
-I am thinking seriously about becoming a professor.
I'm sure that I'm going to have to be in a place that continually inspires me intellectually and creatively, and a good collegetown and working with people who actually want to learn is just that for me.
However, I just as likely could do a job that requires no mental or literal take-home work, and not challenge myself in any way. I could do something unremarkable because it gives me a paycheck and has to be done. I doubt this will happen though. But being in an authority position is weird for me, and I'm actually not good at teaching. I'm exploring this with my new job and it's so strange. I've come to understand that there's a certain level of bullshit you have to know you're full of, but not let that show.
-I worked second shift for the first time in my life, on top of a job in the mornings. Just for a week. It was actually pretty cool, if it tuckered me out. Everyone there is really nice, and working nights is actually more relaxed than doing days at the same place. Though the day people are great as well.
-I like my voice much better when it's speaking Spanish.
(American) English is such an unattractive language in general, though having a lovely accent can help. I do not have one of those. People who do are awesome.
-My hands are so-very-colorfully stained and look permanently dirty (but they're quite clean, I assure you.) I don't care, and actually kinda like it. And I like working with kids, and this whole being forced into an adult position AND being always creative is challenging and good for me.
-I hope Alex and Becca had fun in Ithaca. I did not know Nabokov lived here, or that he lived here in 3408234 different houses, apparently. I felt bad that I didn't get to hang out with them more, that weekend was a bit booked. A lot of people to see, and it was fun. Hung out with Bogdan and Frederick too, went to Stewart Park and played/ate with more people. Good weekend.
-If I didn't mention it before, I had a lot of fun hanging out with Russ and Branden before they left for opposite sides of the country. We did a little bit of what we should do in the summer, and it's about time. Some year I'll develop the photos. I love them both, and hope they're having a great time on their respective coasts. Good for them.
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I need to get my laptop fixed within the next month. I would prefer to have a pal do it. There's money in it for you. This is very important.
*************************************************************************
I'm glad for every single person I have met lately.
Sometimes I was getting kinda down about all the jobs I applied for and didn't get, particularly because I felt some could have been done by a retarded monkey, so I certainly would have been qualified. Others I was really psyched to do because I felt that I would be good for it and it for me. But things work out, as they tend to do, and I've had some really good experiences as things have panned out. I guess it's good that I didn't get the orientation job at IC, because I've gotten to know more people in Binghamton that I probably wouldn't have otherwise. I've worked with some truly diverse and interesting people, if for a short time, and I'm glad for that. I like being able to go to the First Fridays in Binghamton as well. I've randomly met a handful of new people here and there, and that's pretty cool too. It makes me feel a lot less like this summer is a vapid hole of time between semesters.
I've also noticed that I seem to have met quite a number of people lately that are either from another country or have visited some really diverse places around the world, and many that are at least bilingual. And everyone encourages me to go to Amsterdam next Spring. I'm really excited, I think it's going to be amazing for me. I hope so at least, and that's assuming I get accepted and can swing it. But that's not the point. The point is how cool it's been to talk to people about living in or visiting Cuba, Ghana, Iceland, Italy, Amsterdam, France, Vietnam, Mexico, etc etc. I know that I have to do these sort of things with my life.
Okay, the end. Less than a month until the festival in CT and then coming right back to Ithaca. Yay for music and good times in new places, yay for being back where I want to be, yay for living in a Garden apartment, no yay for the coming work that I'm becoming too lazy for. I need to get my applications done for my volunteer job next year, I'm looking forward to that as well.
Love you all, take care.