It's just that for so many years I didn't talk to anyone about this kind of personal problems. First off is probably cause I don't really know how is a "close or best friend" is supposed to be. I had always thought close friends are friends that you hang out with more often and talk to a lot. And also because I don't really know all this I just learn to keep them to myself. But to tell you the truth, back then I had been typing on blogs also just to relive myself but never in public or with friends. Most of my problems sounds unimportant and it makes me think that you guys might think it's a very small matter, nothing to worry about.
But yea, being called "best friend" from jesc actually makes me feel embarrassed. It's not that I don't like it but it's just that I'm happy and I don't know how to react to it.
About Joe, yea I have to personally tell him also. But sometimes it doesn't last and there are times I understand why especially when it comes to paying phone bills and all. I actually like getting text msges from him and I told him that before. Roses was something that I asked from him also. I don't often throw tantrums at him but sometimes I do and it ends up having me feel a bit better (throwing them out) and Joe feeling bad about it (which made me feel guilty over it). I try not to get into that situation unless it's called for.
Might think about the labelling stuff. I have a free marker pen that I got from uni since last year which I barely use lol.
It's not noob advices. I think I'm pretty much noob instead to be dwelling about this kind of stuff. Sorry there are times I can't say everything. But thanks for listening (or more like reading) my loooonnngggg ranting/journal. I'm pretty sure there are mistakes which I don't want to go back and read through cause it's always embarrassing to read what I wrote. >_
But yea, being called "best friend" from jesc actually makes me feel embarrassed. It's not that I don't like it but it's just that I'm happy and I don't know how to react to it.
About Joe, yea I have to personally tell him also. But sometimes it doesn't last and there are times I understand why especially when it comes to paying phone bills and all. I actually like getting text msges from him and I told him that before. Roses was something that I asked from him also. I don't often throw tantrums at him but sometimes I do and it ends up having me feel a bit better (throwing them out) and Joe feeling bad about it (which made me feel guilty over it). I try not to get into that situation unless it's called for.
Might think about the labelling stuff. I have a free marker pen that I got from uni since last year which I barely use lol.
It's not noob advices. I think I'm pretty much noob instead to be dwelling about this kind of stuff. Sorry there are times I can't say everything. But thanks for listening (or more like reading) my loooonnngggg ranting/journal. I'm pretty sure there are mistakes which I don't want to go back and read through cause it's always embarrassing to read what I wrote. >_
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