Initiative
So today it looks like I just signed myself up for a quarter-long internship with CALPIRG, an organization with student chapters that fight/campaign for public issues like affordable higher education, renewable energy, etc.. Go me (wtf?!). My first job: taping up 20 healthcare reform posters at Price Center, the metaphorical center of campus.
What the hell did I get myself into?
But on another level, I feel like I have some sort of purpose now, something to focus on. The organizers who talked with me and a handful of other interested people said they liked people who had initiative. And I'm really not the kind to "take the initiative". I'm lazy and apathetic and sometimes I think/act/feel like a goddamn automaton. There's this this wall in my head, generously cushioned in soft, soft material to lessen the heavy blow of everything crashing in and trying to get to the core, to me me.
I'm staring to suspect that it may have something to do with the accidental blow to the head by a golf club when I was little.
But I also think it has something to do with my general fear of doing something that would piss my parents off; I was more reckless when I was little, and man did my dad berate me for not planning ahead. And there's my mom, which I won't get into because I've dealt with her enough times, plus, coming from an immigrant family with a strong Confucian cultural background (FU, Confucius), I had absolutely no background in joining a (grassroots) organization. Either you studystudystudy, or you volunteer through church. Yeah....no.
So, point: signing up for CALPIRG info session and then signing up for an internship = baby step initiative?
This + College Democrats = what the hell have I gotten myself into this quarter?
In other news, southwestern corn chowder is awesome.
Also, THURSDAY.
Also also, time to begin organizing for my first post(s) to 30_romances (and this LJ). Hoorah!
What the hell did I get myself into?
But on another level, I feel like I have some sort of purpose now, something to focus on. The organizers who talked with me and a handful of other interested people said they liked people who had initiative. And I'm really not the kind to "take the initiative". I'm lazy and apathetic and sometimes I think/act/feel like a goddamn automaton. There's this this wall in my head, generously cushioned in soft, soft material to lessen the heavy blow of everything crashing in and trying to get to the core, to me me.
I'm staring to suspect that it may have something to do with the accidental blow to the head by a golf club when I was little.
But I also think it has something to do with my general fear of doing something that would piss my parents off; I was more reckless when I was little, and man did my dad berate me for not planning ahead. And there's my mom, which I won't get into because I've dealt with her enough times, plus, coming from an immigrant family with a strong Confucian cultural background (FU, Confucius), I had absolutely no background in joining a (grassroots) organization. Either you studystudystudy, or you volunteer through church. Yeah....no.
So, point: signing up for CALPIRG info session and then signing up for an internship = baby step initiative?
This + College Democrats = what the hell have I gotten myself into this quarter?
In other news, southwestern corn chowder is awesome.
Also, THURSDAY.
Also also, time to begin organizing for my first post(s) to 30_romances (and this LJ). Hoorah!