3 days and counting
Sometimes there's a gap that you can't seem to bridge. It's not that you don't know it's there. You watch others bridge it right under your nose. You see it, you think about it, you try not to hate it. And nonetheless, it seems that perhaps you've only made a little progress at a time. I'm working on learning to try to forget those gaps-or rather to not worry over them as I can (and tend to) do. I think, I poke, I prod; all in my own mind, I try to sort things out. All the while, I get tripped up and wind up falling shorter and shorter of understanding.
This isn't something I particularly want to get into, it's just been floating around that brainpan of mine and it seemed prudent to get it down. Perhaps there's therapy in outlet.
Also, I don't want these things to be read as an overall unhappiness. I'm very content in where I am, who I choose to be around, how I spend (most of) my time, and the limits I set for myself to keep my focus where it should be. Everyone has their little things, some greater than others. This one's been mine for a time, and I'm working my way through it.
I love WyoTech, I don't find myself complaining (even inwardly) the way I watch so many others do. Sure, my car hasn't run in 2 1/2 months now. I think I'm learning through this to accept it as a gift and never take the things I have for granted. My own transportation (much less the amazing car I've been fortunate enough to have means to own) will be an amazing gift when I have it back again. I've got a job for the school teaching other students, getting to talk car and help others understanding the passion we all share here. Most days, it's a lazy job anyway. I take naps or watch movies, and I'm getting paid for that. I've been watching myself let far too much money out, and I'm working to limit that back down as the money comes back in.
Erika is an amazing blessing. Not everything is flawless every moment. But what is flawless is God's intent in gifting me with her; that I cannot ever doubt. I get such satisfaction, such contentment, such pure bliss out of just hearing her voice over the phone. She knows how to keep me smiling even when I get frustrated. She's beautiful, she's caring, she's never afraid to make things work. I love her so much for the strength she's shown me. Granted, the distance is hard, but I've never been able to feel this way when far from the one I love. 5 months have gone by in the blink of an eye (ignore the poetry and rhyme please, I'm not at all that brilliant :P) and it's incredible to realize it's never been a burden. Knowing that I have Erika, my angel, (and this I tell her all the time, I truly believe she is one) completes me. I haven't for a moment wondered if she loves me as much as I love her. God just said, "now's the time; I made this one for you." I thank Him for you, and I thank you sweetheart. You're my best half, don't ever forget it. No bumps in our path can ever unsettle the depth of our relationship.
Seems that I should get some sleep. Late nights like this are becoming a touch too common. Only 3 more days.
This isn't something I particularly want to get into, it's just been floating around that brainpan of mine and it seemed prudent to get it down. Perhaps there's therapy in outlet.
Also, I don't want these things to be read as an overall unhappiness. I'm very content in where I am, who I choose to be around, how I spend (most of) my time, and the limits I set for myself to keep my focus where it should be. Everyone has their little things, some greater than others. This one's been mine for a time, and I'm working my way through it.
I love WyoTech, I don't find myself complaining (even inwardly) the way I watch so many others do. Sure, my car hasn't run in 2 1/2 months now. I think I'm learning through this to accept it as a gift and never take the things I have for granted. My own transportation (much less the amazing car I've been fortunate enough to have means to own) will be an amazing gift when I have it back again. I've got a job for the school teaching other students, getting to talk car and help others understanding the passion we all share here. Most days, it's a lazy job anyway. I take naps or watch movies, and I'm getting paid for that. I've been watching myself let far too much money out, and I'm working to limit that back down as the money comes back in.
Erika is an amazing blessing. Not everything is flawless every moment. But what is flawless is God's intent in gifting me with her; that I cannot ever doubt. I get such satisfaction, such contentment, such pure bliss out of just hearing her voice over the phone. She knows how to keep me smiling even when I get frustrated. She's beautiful, she's caring, she's never afraid to make things work. I love her so much for the strength she's shown me. Granted, the distance is hard, but I've never been able to feel this way when far from the one I love. 5 months have gone by in the blink of an eye (ignore the poetry and rhyme please, I'm not at all that brilliant :P) and it's incredible to realize it's never been a burden. Knowing that I have Erika, my angel, (and this I tell her all the time, I truly believe she is one) completes me. I haven't for a moment wondered if she loves me as much as I love her. God just said, "now's the time; I made this one for you." I thank Him for you, and I thank you sweetheart. You're my best half, don't ever forget it. No bumps in our path can ever unsettle the depth of our relationship.
Seems that I should get some sleep. Late nights like this are becoming a touch too common. Only 3 more days.