Fuggiam gli ardori inospiti
I remember things so vividly it hurts.
"I remember/I remember every bit of it."
I can't sleep, but I want to sleep, but I can't. But I want to so bad. I feel consumed. I feel like I'm the Stoorwurm and Assipattle put a coal in my liver. I remember, and I hate, and it's just difficult to keep things straight. I'm listening to Aida so loud right now that it's hurting my head, and it's still not helping.
Hmph. Maybe I shouldn't have had caffeine this morning. I only did it because I thought I was being put to work straight away cutting and hauling dead branches, and it turned out that I wasn't needed there anyway, so I might as well have actual breakfast before I did the garden. So I could have gone without it.
Speaking of the garden, it is planted now, and it rained this evening, so hopefully the plants'll take and it'll go well.
On the other hand (going back to my insomnia), I had a brief moment of derealisation a few days ago, so maybe this was just inevitable.
OK. I'm going to break down and take Benedryl, even though it gives me a cruddy hangover.
Real update later.
PS, Anlissi, I'm sorry about not IMing, but I just wasn't in a state where interacting with people would have been a good idea. Tomorrow, I promise.
"I remember/I remember every bit of it."
I can't sleep, but I want to sleep, but I can't. But I want to so bad. I feel consumed. I feel like I'm the Stoorwurm and Assipattle put a coal in my liver. I remember, and I hate, and it's just difficult to keep things straight. I'm listening to Aida so loud right now that it's hurting my head, and it's still not helping.
Hmph. Maybe I shouldn't have had caffeine this morning. I only did it because I thought I was being put to work straight away cutting and hauling dead branches, and it turned out that I wasn't needed there anyway, so I might as well have actual breakfast before I did the garden. So I could have gone without it.
Speaking of the garden, it is planted now, and it rained this evening, so hopefully the plants'll take and it'll go well.
On the other hand (going back to my insomnia), I had a brief moment of derealisation a few days ago, so maybe this was just inevitable.
OK. I'm going to break down and take Benedryl, even though it gives me a cruddy hangover.
Real update later.
PS, Anlissi, I'm sorry about not IMing, but I just wasn't in a state where interacting with people would have been a good idea. Tomorrow, I promise.