So many downs but not many ups.
I know it's been awhile since I've updated. The past two weeks have been serious downers with school among other things! This weekend I actually feel better which is great!
Anyways the last two weeks have been hell because of school being a pain in the ass as well as me overthinking once again about friends. I realized how much I do not enjoy my Asian Philosophy class when I had to write two papers for it last week and well I seriously wanted to scream. The teacher and the philosophy major students in the class are so judgemental to the point where I felt my interpretation was quieted because it wasn't the "right way" to say it. Pretty much I don't care about that class anymore and wish I didn't take it but whatever.
The whole finding friends has been beating me down as usual too with people in the beginning being all friendly and outgoing with me then suddenly be all quiet and off with their friends. The people come on strong then totally retract back after they talk to me which gets annoying. One girl I tried to befriend only talks me now when her friend isn't there so I kind of feel used in a sense. However I have decided that school isn't really the place for me to meet people now in days and finding people outside of it might be my best bet.
Right now however I'm in a better place with all the thinking I've done and making plans to change things in my life in order to be happy. With that in mind I have to go work on homework! This week is the last week before spring break so I'm exciting! Gotta hang in there for the best!
Anyways the last two weeks have been hell because of school being a pain in the ass as well as me overthinking once again about friends. I realized how much I do not enjoy my Asian Philosophy class when I had to write two papers for it last week and well I seriously wanted to scream. The teacher and the philosophy major students in the class are so judgemental to the point where I felt my interpretation was quieted because it wasn't the "right way" to say it. Pretty much I don't care about that class anymore and wish I didn't take it but whatever.
The whole finding friends has been beating me down as usual too with people in the beginning being all friendly and outgoing with me then suddenly be all quiet and off with their friends. The people come on strong then totally retract back after they talk to me which gets annoying. One girl I tried to befriend only talks me now when her friend isn't there so I kind of feel used in a sense. However I have decided that school isn't really the place for me to meet people now in days and finding people outside of it might be my best bet.
Right now however I'm in a better place with all the thinking I've done and making plans to change things in my life in order to be happy. With that in mind I have to go work on homework! This week is the last week before spring break so I'm exciting! Gotta hang in there for the best!