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I have seemed to place myself in a bubble since my second "transplant" back in March (March 30th (my third "birthday")) I have made absolutely no effort in contacting ANY of my closest friends and cousins whether that be a phone call, email, snail mail, text msg, AIM, LJ or other blogs. My brain has been so fogged up that I even spaced out on birthdays and graduations. I am SO sorry. I just had no desire to communicate with the outside world. And the scary thing is...I was okay with that. My days were spent sleeping and going to the clinic where the nurses, doctors, and drugs gave me comfort. I just feel so drained and unmotivated. But believe me...I think about you constantly...wondering what youre up to and wondering how life is treating you. Wishing that everything was normal.
Im slowly breaking outta this bubble. I know its taking a long time but Im just taking it a day at a time because Ill never know what kind of day Ill have. I am truly, truly blessed to have people like you in my life. YOU are the reason Im hanging in there or I would have given up this fight a long time ago. This fight has exhausted me and you know I use to be one of the peppy types. So it would have to take a lot to get me down. So thank you for being there for me and keeping my spirits up.
Becky and Christy...I miss you two the most because you are so close but seem so far away. Remember the times when we couldn't go through two days without calling each other? I want those days to come back real soon.
Im slowly breaking outta this bubble. I know its taking a long time but Im just taking it a day at a time because Ill never know what kind of day Ill have. I am truly, truly blessed to have people like you in my life. YOU are the reason Im hanging in there or I would have given up this fight a long time ago. This fight has exhausted me and you know I use to be one of the peppy types. So it would have to take a lot to get me down. So thank you for being there for me and keeping my spirits up.
Becky and Christy...I miss you two the most because you are so close but seem so far away. Remember the times when we couldn't go through two days without calling each other? I want those days to come back real soon.