And it's left me with a face that's harsher than mine
I was afraid for a while that I'd lost myself, coming to college.
I've been spending so much time making friends, building relationships- solidifying them, spending time and emotions and reflecting on them. I've been spreading myself out so thin, building these connections.
Lately, if I have free time, I don't think of what book I want to read, but what person I want to find and hang out with. I spend so many meals with people- eating and laughing and talking. It's strange. I don't need to take a book with me most places around Hiram, I'm so sure that there'll be someone there that I like and can talk to.
I was afraid for a while that I'd lost my love of books, exchanged it for this progress towards becoming a new person (and the question, do I want to be a new person? Even if the new person is better, do I want to go ahead and kill 'old me'?).
Anyhoo, I spent spring break on campus, with a lot of books, and I managed to reconnect with my old love. I compromised too- I watched movies with friends, took long walks, and so on.
I'm working on building a happy medium with my books and with my new people. I don't know how summer will go. I think I'm going to try to be more active.
I've been spending so much time making friends, building relationships- solidifying them, spending time and emotions and reflecting on them. I've been spreading myself out so thin, building these connections.
Lately, if I have free time, I don't think of what book I want to read, but what person I want to find and hang out with. I spend so many meals with people- eating and laughing and talking. It's strange. I don't need to take a book with me most places around Hiram, I'm so sure that there'll be someone there that I like and can talk to.
I was afraid for a while that I'd lost my love of books, exchanged it for this progress towards becoming a new person (and the question, do I want to be a new person? Even if the new person is better, do I want to go ahead and kill 'old me'?).
Anyhoo, I spent spring break on campus, with a lot of books, and I managed to reconnect with my old love. I compromised too- I watched movies with friends, took long walks, and so on.
I'm working on building a happy medium with my books and with my new people. I don't know how summer will go. I think I'm going to try to be more active.