i am sick.
Hello, world. I am sick. I got called to work at 8:30 but I felt like absolute death. Pete noticed my voice sounded terrible & said he'd find someone else. I regret it; I could really use the money.. Last night was a 50/50 split of good fun & dark memories. Tara made popcorn as I came back to the apartment, soaking wet from walking in the rain, & we watched Percy Jackson & The Olympians. Later that night I lay in bed surrounded by candlelight (blackouts FTW), & cried myself into a depression over her. Remembering the good times with JJ makes my heart hurt. I haven't had these memories about Seth, but they're always about JJ. I wonder what this means about our relationship. Did I love him, or was it just comfortable? I don't miss him, but I sure as hell miss HER.. I don't know anymore. As usual, I overanalyse everything. Time to ignore this sore throat/achy-tired thing & clean my room. Jesse's coming over tonight & we have yoga journals to write for tomorrow.