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- Went to math today. I realized today it's not so much hard, or painful, as just a waste of time. I won't remember any of it and I'm wasting money. At this point I just want to get the GED and get a job or something. I still think my math teacher needs fight club bad. The bruise on his cheek is almost healed, which means he didn't go back. Pussy. I am Joe's disinterest in life.
- Also, thinking now, I realize I have no idea what my math teacher's name is. I feel this is a failing on some one's part.
- Tried to go on a bike ride yesterday, but was stopped by my mum who said we needed to get the tires reaired. After we finally figured out how to do that we realized my mother had filled it much and the back break was stuck. Long story short, as we were walking to the repair shop the innertube broke on the wheel. I broke the bike while not even riding it. God I am an idiot. I think god is telling me to give up sports. God only knows what will happen at my race next month. If I have a heart attack it only proves my theory.
- Went to the used book store on the west side today and finished reading the Myth Of Sisyphus's other essays. In the end I broke down and bought it. It was only thee dollars. Later I told someone I had gotten it and they said 'Camus? Jesus I'd rather beat myself to death then read him.' I think they sort of missed the point.
-Talked to someone I very much like talking to today. Maybe I'll be able to deal with tomorrow now.
- I've been feeling really unmotivated to write recently. I don't know if it's because I've been in such a bad mood recently, or if the bad bad mood is coming from not writing, but either way it's weird. My neck and head hurt all the time and I find myself not wanting to get out of bed a lot. Nothing excites me, nothing gets me up in the morning, and no one is there to greet me as I wake. I feel like such a whiner, but it's starting to really annoy me. I think it has a lot to do with the fact October is coming which is hard. It brings up all those feelings of loneliness and panic that were so strong last year. I hope I'm ok in time for Boston. Or in general.
- God whiny journal entry. I'll do something better next time. Maybe a review or something.
- On a better note, Sense and Sensibility and Sea Monsters is out. Read a bit of it in the store. I love Quirk classics. They make my heart sing.
- Also, thinking now, I realize I have no idea what my math teacher's name is. I feel this is a failing on some one's part.
- Tried to go on a bike ride yesterday, but was stopped by my mum who said we needed to get the tires reaired. After we finally figured out how to do that we realized my mother had filled it much and the back break was stuck. Long story short, as we were walking to the repair shop the innertube broke on the wheel. I broke the bike while not even riding it. God I am an idiot. I think god is telling me to give up sports. God only knows what will happen at my race next month. If I have a heart attack it only proves my theory.
- Went to the used book store on the west side today and finished reading the Myth Of Sisyphus's other essays. In the end I broke down and bought it. It was only thee dollars. Later I told someone I had gotten it and they said 'Camus? Jesus I'd rather beat myself to death then read him.' I think they sort of missed the point.
-Talked to someone I very much like talking to today. Maybe I'll be able to deal with tomorrow now.
- I've been feeling really unmotivated to write recently. I don't know if it's because I've been in such a bad mood recently, or if the bad bad mood is coming from not writing, but either way it's weird. My neck and head hurt all the time and I find myself not wanting to get out of bed a lot. Nothing excites me, nothing gets me up in the morning, and no one is there to greet me as I wake. I feel like such a whiner, but it's starting to really annoy me. I think it has a lot to do with the fact October is coming which is hard. It brings up all those feelings of loneliness and panic that were so strong last year. I hope I'm ok in time for Boston. Or in general.
- God whiny journal entry. I'll do something better next time. Maybe a review or something.
- On a better note, Sense and Sensibility and Sea Monsters is out. Read a bit of it in the store. I love Quirk classics. They make my heart sing.