I'll give up!
I've given up visiting Fred and Ross kun this summer. (Oh, I can imagine a big relieved expression on Fred's face, cuz I am always annoying for him, I still don't know why is that.) I've always wanted to see them since I got back Japan. Cuz I really really miss my friends... The reason I gave up is 1) I don't have money! Hahaha, maybe I already spent too much money on clothes. 2) Again, my mom is stopping me from going to outside of Japan. But this is not a serious problem cuz i know I can convince her. 3) My own fear of going to Vietnam. I heard there is an outbreak of malaria in Vietnam. I don't wanna die. 4) the only one serious concern. I don't have enough time for going travel. Cuz now I officially got a inern in NY and I will be in NY from August and I will go back to Japan in maybe middle of September... See? I don't have a time! Academic year in my univ starts in late September. Where is my free time?
When I realized I don't have a time to see my friends in Vietnam, I was super unhappy. A Muuuuu situation again. So I think I need to look for something else which can make me happy or at least cheering me up. Like... watching a super good porn? I don't know.
Oh, wait, I had another plan to go to Turkey with my friends from highschool. Her friend is having a wedding ceremony in Turkey so she asked me whether I wanna go with her. And of course I wanna go. I was dreaming to go to Turkey someday! Why? Cuz I think it is maybe awesome. Hahahaha. But again, I have financial and schedule problem. Ahhh... I can't miss this chance to go to Turkey...
Tell me anyone! What should I do? I really can't decide now.