mistake

[shiomyou]

the scene was played over and over again
each time i close my eyes..
the look on his face
the look of anxiety..
it was all in my mind

if only i was able
if only i was able..
if only..
but the clock can never tick backwards..

this stained hand of mine..
will i ever be able to forgive myself..?

if only i was more
if only i was better..
if only...
but i have no one else to blame but myself..

how can i face myself..
will i be able to face my mistake...
will i..?
I can never be the same again.

oh god..
i can never stop calling you..
as my heart is crushed little by little..
and the whole world is slowly turning against me..
please be by my side..
i can never be saved by no one but you...

please be that invisible hand that pushes me forward..
no matter what..
no matter how..
my heart is crying for you...

to be able to atone..
to be forgiven..