Sep 07, 2020 15:42
but they are not the same.
Today I discover something interesting!
So, I was watching this random video of a thai live band performing an English song by Elvis - Blue Suede Shoes. It is probably this fateful combination of a thai band singing an English song that made me come to this conclusion that - they may look the same but they are not the same.
Many years ago I fell in love with Thailand (well to be fair, it was Bangkok). It was the first time I watched Thai bands performed live (they were singing Thai songs). Thai music and Thai people (the band and audience both) has this charm. It feels like free-spirited ness to me, that is why it is very infectious for me. I felt instantly absorbed into the atmosphere. I could tell the effects music has for Thai people, it is quite primitive and innocent actually. And you know ever since, I find myself wanting to know more, more about their culture and why they are the way they are. Why are they so free-spirited and how they do it? So I learn Thai, watch Thai movies, got to know some Thai friends here and there. i remember I'm always pretty enthusiastic about it. But I realised even after all these 'work', I still do not understand Thai people or their culture truly and deeply. And I think I probably never will, it is just one of the things that you cannot learn. This realisation came out in another way when I was watching that video of the Thai band covering an English song just now reminded me that - I love Thai people, Thai culture and Thai music so much, but the lack of understanding sometimes make me think of them as all the same - Thai = Free-spirited = Good music = moves me and I love it! But no leh, among them also have evil people, pretentious people, insecure people = humans. So they are not all the same!
This entry/ realisation is really just something to remind myself not to be overly enthusiastic about Thai/ Thailand. Sometimes I even get disappointed in Thai strangers because they are not Thai enough to meet my Thai expectations of them - ridiculous right! And I think this same theory actually applies to alot of other things that we like. When we like something, or admire/ look up to somethng, someone, we associated them with all the good things (halo effect omg soc psy!) and we sometimes find ourselves disappointed when our expectations are not met, but often times the expectations we had were not fair or realistic to begin with. I'm someone who feels disappointed in things or people I like pretty often (food, parents, friends, colleagues, mentors...) but actually all these while, I thought it was about me, my expectations, but I forget that they are their own person, and they have totally different set of expectations or desires for themselves. Even food, have their own fate - sold out, expired, dropped on the floor by accident etc.
Oh well! what a midday adventure my mind went through!