Ugh. just. Ugh.
I'm tired. I don't get any sleep anymore. It's okay, though. I stay up to talk to Adam. It's not like I need sleep, anyways. I'm young. I'm resiliant. I'll bounce back. I can sleep during class. right?
Umm... I wish I could quit activities. I wish I could be a bum. I wish I could drop out. Not really the last one, but I wish I wasn't so damn dependable. It would make life easier. It's like people expect more out of me than they do other people. That's not fair. If I do something that's "sub-standard", it's a humongous dissapointment because I'm me. Like my story for FCTV last week. Here's a quote from Kimbler. "If someone else had done this story, it would have been good. But YOU did this story, and for YOU it isn't very good." Jesus Christ. Can't I have an off day? It's not just FCTV. It's everything. I don't care if it's supposed to be a compliment that people hold me to a different standard than other people. I hope I don't sound like an ungrateful bitch. I just want to be normal.
Now I'm going to talk about things that make me happy, and currently what makes me happy is INTENSIVE. I'm doing an 'independent study' intensive, and I'm going to look at colleges. Where, you ask? Why L.A.! That's where! And who will you be staying with, Sam? Do you have to stay in a hotel? Well, my fine feathered friends, I will be staying with Mr. Adam Roberts. I. am. excited. I actually can't wait. Hopefully, then next nine weeks go by extremely fast. That's all that's left in this semester. Nine Weeks. Then, after that, two-ish weeks of break, a week of intensive, then 18 weeks. Then it will be June. And Graduation. and... Adam???
Oh jesus. Someone give me something to fast-forward time. It's already going by fast, but I want it to go by faster.
On a lighter note, check out the ambiguity of THIS picture:
Oh. And P.S. Room21 - Show in Anderson on the 22nd of October. If you don't want to drive, I'm sure we can find you a spot in a car to ride up there. Also, a bit closer to home, a show at Logo's on October 30th. Be there or be square.
Umm... I wish I could quit activities. I wish I could be a bum. I wish I could drop out. Not really the last one, but I wish I wasn't so damn dependable. It would make life easier. It's like people expect more out of me than they do other people. That's not fair. If I do something that's "sub-standard", it's a humongous dissapointment because I'm me. Like my story for FCTV last week. Here's a quote from Kimbler. "If someone else had done this story, it would have been good. But YOU did this story, and for YOU it isn't very good." Jesus Christ. Can't I have an off day? It's not just FCTV. It's everything. I don't care if it's supposed to be a compliment that people hold me to a different standard than other people. I hope I don't sound like an ungrateful bitch. I just want to be normal.
Now I'm going to talk about things that make me happy, and currently what makes me happy is INTENSIVE. I'm doing an 'independent study' intensive, and I'm going to look at colleges. Where, you ask? Why L.A.! That's where! And who will you be staying with, Sam? Do you have to stay in a hotel? Well, my fine feathered friends, I will be staying with Mr. Adam Roberts. I. am. excited. I actually can't wait. Hopefully, then next nine weeks go by extremely fast. That's all that's left in this semester. Nine Weeks. Then, after that, two-ish weeks of break, a week of intensive, then 18 weeks. Then it will be June. And Graduation. and... Adam???
Oh jesus. Someone give me something to fast-forward time. It's already going by fast, but I want it to go by faster.
On a lighter note, check out the ambiguity of THIS picture:
Oh. And P.S. Room21 - Show in Anderson on the 22nd of October. If you don't want to drive, I'm sure we can find you a spot in a car to ride up there. Also, a bit closer to home, a show at Logo's on October 30th. Be there or be square.