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You know, I've been thinking about the past.
I've been thinking about who I was before I met you. I've been thinking about who I am since I met you.
Before I met you, I was a monastary..........then I met you and you broke it all down to the foundations, destroyed it to its component blocks. You stood amid the rubble and smiled and said.......
"Okay, tough guy, build me a castle......"
You made it seem like a joy, a privelage.......I enjoyed growing for you.
I wish to God I had grown further and faster.
Things haven't been much fun without you around. I'm enough of an adult now to tell you that. Its all murky and gray and slow and muddy without your vivaceousness and attention.
I'm left with so many unanswered questions...........After all that's gone on, after all we've been through, after all we've put each other through, I'm left with one fundamental multiple choice question.......
What were you to me?
a: A soulmate?
b: A mistake?
c: A crutch?
d: A muse?
e: All of the Above
Maybe its for posterity to be the final Jeopardy answer.
I don't know.
The big brother in me wants to think you were smart and are involved happily with a certain Marine, thinking about the future and kids and window treatments and backyard implements and new kitchen appliances.
The romeo in me wants to see your enormous eyes again and hold you tight and spend a week or so in your exclusive company, forgetting utterly the outside world, losing myself in the good times I know we can easily have.
I've been such a Stalin, cuz I had to be........But I'm so tired of being cold and emotionless, most of all towards you........
This is important......the PPO doesn't expire till 7/29/05......I checked and rechecked.....a lot
Otherwise, I'd have called you by now.
Be brave.
Be happy.
Be a success.
I've been thinking about who I was before I met you. I've been thinking about who I am since I met you.
Before I met you, I was a monastary..........then I met you and you broke it all down to the foundations, destroyed it to its component blocks. You stood amid the rubble and smiled and said.......
"Okay, tough guy, build me a castle......"
You made it seem like a joy, a privelage.......I enjoyed growing for you.
I wish to God I had grown further and faster.
Things haven't been much fun without you around. I'm enough of an adult now to tell you that. Its all murky and gray and slow and muddy without your vivaceousness and attention.
I'm left with so many unanswered questions...........After all that's gone on, after all we've been through, after all we've put each other through, I'm left with one fundamental multiple choice question.......
What were you to me?
a: A soulmate?
b: A mistake?
c: A crutch?
d: A muse?
e: All of the Above
Maybe its for posterity to be the final Jeopardy answer.
I don't know.
The big brother in me wants to think you were smart and are involved happily with a certain Marine, thinking about the future and kids and window treatments and backyard implements and new kitchen appliances.
The romeo in me wants to see your enormous eyes again and hold you tight and spend a week or so in your exclusive company, forgetting utterly the outside world, losing myself in the good times I know we can easily have.
I've been such a Stalin, cuz I had to be........But I'm so tired of being cold and emotionless, most of all towards you........
This is important......the PPO doesn't expire till 7/29/05......I checked and rechecked.....a lot
Otherwise, I'd have called you by now.
Be brave.
Be happy.
Be a success.