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[shinygobonkers]

You begin to seek out hunger in a way that isn't even about food, about calories or weight or your feelings about the feel of your body. Just hunger, the point where it is a physical thing, pain in your belly, an aching demand. When you were a real person this was a bad thing, annoying, distracting you from the things you actually had in your life to do.

Now, sometimes, increasingly...
It is a comfort, in a twisted way:
This is something familar,
something you can have as much of as you want,
something you can cling to, when all else falls away.