No, I will not stop ranting
I've been poofed off LJ again. ((Too much roleplay, It's eating on me))
..Ya...And that's what I'm gonna blabling on about this time.
Feel free to scroll down, look at the pic, and comment just on it if you're not interest in other craps
((But first...That ads on the tops of the page "Find you Russian beauty today" kinda ....nerve wrecking..... for some reason...))
So...some of you probably know that roleplay on facebook where we create accounts according to character and play as that character. And it's rather all over the place, everyone/anyone and all the made up OC like countries that hasn't been there or even make-up for their son or daughter (since you can throw those status on FB profile)
I start of playing Thailand, and it was rather boring until I met North Korea (my taste in woman is twisted...I tell ya...but she's cute when she's shy...)
She has a little sadistic side to her, and we have this little meme thing that somehow make it that North Korea and ruined Thailand attempt at another world war. And she's been rather disappointed about that.
Then I get an idea (because, I actually sick of the romance that was everywhere) that, what would happen if we have a war situation and tension on the RP.
So I asked around and some people are interest and blah blah blah.
Now at one point. I decide to start playing Russia as well, since There is no Rus/Lit what so ever, and I want to bully Liet.
...My plan was, just harassing him around. Especially the most active Liet has already been married to Poland.
....Out of ...I don't know.. Poland seems almost over protective but then somehow give up and let me took Liet. However, I only have a short time with him. Just as we were having a sweet moment, when Liet was saying "I think I love you" Poland commit suicide and the whole RP gone crazy.
....And everyone blame Russia.........
(I drew it a little after that drama)
(the color looks bright...but it looks sad and lonely..)
WOW... it hurts. "I" actually felt that pain. but when I talk ooc and see that everyone have fun and pretty much enjoy the drama, it's fine. Although I still feel bad for Ivan.
Poland's RPer apologized to me later. Most things are fine. Then I let Liet back to stay with Poland, and those two get a kid.
Yeah...a kid...suppose to be a baby...should be some little toddler, somehow.. SHE'S A 14 YEARS OLD.
So..this girl go around, talking to pretty much everyone, including Russia.
In "my" opinion, Ivan would probably nice with kids (I might be playing him too nice....)
So he has been nice too this girl. A little sad from time to time.. Saying there is no heart in his chest, and she kind of ask "Can I fill it up for you" something like that. I was clueless lol.
Then one day that girl said "I love you, Ivan" and the whole(well, most of the closer friends) goes crazy.
I understand her though...cuz...the Ivan I play was the sweetest thing with this girl(and the other girl, Alfred's adoptive kid, as well, but that one was eight, so I can't......)
But it still feels so wrong LOL, and he still loves Liet no matter what.
Now..I found that I can distract myself a little and play sweet romance with this girl to almost no ends, but sometimes she's not there. and..Although Alfred's is still playing with Ivan..it's still different.
Then I try to bug Liet, but he won't answer because he was busy. (I mean really, the RPer was busy)
Liet would talk a little here and there. A few sentences and he's gone. then yesterday(or was it the day before..) I saw him talking with Canada, but didn't answer my post. And his album that has only LietPol keep pops up at the highlight thing on FB, so it was always in my eyes.(And I was a masochist for keep on clinking on it)
.......Then I got jealous...and angry..
(and say quietly when I saw he talks about how both he and Poland were masochist "Why don't ya come to me if ya like to be hurt. I'll torture you to death")
I got so jealous I "actually" cried.
It wasn't roleplay. I was lying on my bed, crying on my pillow looking at the screen.
Then I lose it and call Liet on FB chat. Luckily, he's finally free and got sometimes for a decent conversation.
Ivan was crying, telling Liet he's lonely, and jealous of everyone he talked to and he hates everyone, especially Poland.(That was what I really think... I never knew, but I'm really such an envious person, it's almost scary.)
Then we get on the second part..Because I HATE it, when I see Liet being happy with Poland. (Shiny's No.1 definition of love: "I want to be the only one who can make you happy")
Ivan scream(??) at Liet "You only happy with him? and never me, why?" Liet told him that he was hard to handle.... so Ivan said "Why don't you just hate me" Liet said he couldn't do it...now I get on the bad side of Ivan, when he start sneering and being mean.
Then he try to force Liet, to say that he "hates" him(which includes two slap and caller pulling)
In the end Liet won't say it, so... it endvin the way that, Liet also loves him.
Ivan cut out a little piece of his hair and said he won't see him again.
.......then I go.. "shit...." ..and now I'm talking to him...cuz I can't keep myself away.....It's really hard not talking to him when he's online.
...well I squeal at Lithuania's name......... what do you expect...
.......orz...........
I don't know anymore if I'm in love with Ivan or Toris.......................but I know that this is rather bad........
erm..... that was long...
I was just wanting to say... "It grows on me too much...I can't believe I get so jealous over fanarts and some roleplay I really cry"
and so I really don't know if I was just feel for Ivan, or was jealous myself.
Thank you everyone
..Ya...And that's what I'm gonna blabling on about this time.
Feel free to scroll down, look at the pic, and comment just on it if you're not interest in other craps
((But first...That ads on the tops of the page "Find you Russian beauty today" kinda ....nerve wrecking..... for some reason...))
So...some of you probably know that roleplay on facebook where we create accounts according to character and play as that character. And it's rather all over the place, everyone/anyone and all the made up OC like countries that hasn't been there or even make-up for their son or daughter (since you can throw those status on FB profile)
I start of playing Thailand, and it was rather boring until I met North Korea (my taste in woman is twisted...I tell ya...but she's cute when she's shy...)
She has a little sadistic side to her, and we have this little meme thing that somehow make it that North Korea and ruined Thailand attempt at another world war. And she's been rather disappointed about that.
Then I get an idea (because, I actually sick of the romance that was everywhere) that, what would happen if we have a war situation and tension on the RP.
So I asked around and some people are interest and blah blah blah.
Now at one point. I decide to start playing Russia as well, since There is no Rus/Lit what so ever, and I want to bully Liet.
...My plan was, just harassing him around. Especially the most active Liet has already been married to Poland.
....Out of ...I don't know.. Poland seems almost over protective but then somehow give up and let me took Liet. However, I only have a short time with him. Just as we were having a sweet moment, when Liet was saying "I think I love you" Poland commit suicide and the whole RP gone crazy.
....And everyone blame Russia.........
(I drew it a little after that drama)
(the color looks bright...but it looks sad and lonely..)
WOW... it hurts. "I" actually felt that pain. but when I talk ooc and see that everyone have fun and pretty much enjoy the drama, it's fine. Although I still feel bad for Ivan.
Poland's RPer apologized to me later. Most things are fine. Then I let Liet back to stay with Poland, and those two get a kid.
Yeah...a kid...suppose to be a baby...should be some little toddler, somehow.. SHE'S A 14 YEARS OLD.
So..this girl go around, talking to pretty much everyone, including Russia.
In "my" opinion, Ivan would probably nice with kids (I might be playing him too nice....)
So he has been nice too this girl. A little sad from time to time.. Saying there is no heart in his chest, and she kind of ask "Can I fill it up for you" something like that. I was clueless lol.
Then one day that girl said "I love you, Ivan" and the whole(well, most of the closer friends) goes crazy.
I understand her though...cuz...the Ivan I play was the sweetest thing with this girl(and the other girl, Alfred's adoptive kid, as well, but that one was eight, so I can't......)
But it still feels so wrong LOL, and he still loves Liet no matter what.
Now..I found that I can distract myself a little and play sweet romance with this girl to almost no ends, but sometimes she's not there. and..Although Alfred's is still playing with Ivan..it's still different.
Then I try to bug Liet, but he won't answer because he was busy. (I mean really, the RPer was busy)
Liet would talk a little here and there. A few sentences and he's gone. then yesterday(or was it the day before..) I saw him talking with Canada, but didn't answer my post. And his album that has only LietPol keep pops up at the highlight thing on FB, so it was always in my eyes.(And I was a masochist for keep on clinking on it)
.......Then I got jealous...and angry..
(and say quietly when I saw he talks about how both he and Poland were masochist "Why don't ya come to me if ya like to be hurt. I'll torture you to death")
I got so jealous I "actually" cried.
It wasn't roleplay. I was lying on my bed, crying on my pillow looking at the screen.
Then I lose it and call Liet on FB chat. Luckily, he's finally free and got sometimes for a decent conversation.
Ivan was crying, telling Liet he's lonely, and jealous of everyone he talked to and he hates everyone, especially Poland.(That was what I really think... I never knew, but I'm really such an envious person, it's almost scary.)
Then we get on the second part..Because I HATE it, when I see Liet being happy with Poland. (Shiny's No.1 definition of love: "I want to be the only one who can make you happy")
Ivan scream(??) at Liet "You only happy with him? and never me, why?" Liet told him that he was hard to handle.... so Ivan said "Why don't you just hate me" Liet said he couldn't do it...now I get on the bad side of Ivan, when he start sneering and being mean.
Then he try to force Liet, to say that he "hates" him(which includes two slap and caller pulling)
In the end Liet won't say it, so... it endvin the way that, Liet also loves him.
Ivan cut out a little piece of his hair and said he won't see him again.
.......then I go.. "shit...." ..and now I'm talking to him...cuz I can't keep myself away.....It's really hard not talking to him when he's online.
...well I squeal at Lithuania's name......... what do you expect...
.......orz...........
I don't know anymore if I'm in love with Ivan or Toris.......................but I know that this is rather bad........
erm..... that was long...
I was just wanting to say... "It grows on me too much...I can't believe I get so jealous over fanarts and some roleplay I really cry"
and so I really don't know if I was just feel for Ivan, or was jealous myself.
Thank you everyone