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i saw andy today!
it was so great. he called me and was like "we're an hour away from eugene adnw we're going to come pick you up at your house. so i start cleaning the house. and while i'm up in my room i hear a knocking and so i run down the stairs and my mom has opened the door and he's there and i give him a HUGE hug! i missed him so much, and i realized how much i did when i saw him again. We were suppossed to go back to his hotel to swim.hang out or whatever, but we wneded upat the mall becuase brad's girlfriend katelyn wasn't allowed to go to a hotel room with her boyfriend. so andy and i took this oportunity to be complete dorks around the mall. so we go into random stores and just act weird. then we find elephant's trunk and play dress up!! andy was a viking and i was a cowgirl. it was fun. then... we went into abercrombie to make fun of everyone and as soon as we walked in one of the girls who worked there complimented my outfit. needless to say i felt violated. andy just turns to me, and i'm like "oh... disss....". then we go and he tries on some make up (not willingly) and i make him put on ralph lauren blue cologne. i do too. then brad makes fun of me for wearind men's cologne. i don't care. we laugh a lot. we leave eddy a message on his cell becuase he wanted tot alk to andy ( don't know why... ) and andy is a total dorky kid. we laugh... etc. then it's time to leave, and i get dropped off at my house. i give him another HUGE hug. he's suppossed to call me tonight... or talk online. and i come into the room, my mom is watching a movie and she turns to me and asks me how it was. we talk. and she tells me that when she opened the door, andy was really sweet and asked if caroline was home. then i came bounding down the stairs, and she said his facial expression was so happy!! that made me feel really uber good. then i came up to my room, and see that ed has left me some messages on my away message. i talk to him a bit. he's really in a bad mood apparently. he wont tell me why. i tell him about seeing andy etc. and we somehow get on the stopinc of how he apparently hates my dad...? simply becuase he is a republican. i'm just like, "i don't like republicans, but i dont let myself hate the person." and hes like "all republicans are closeted homosexuals" and all of this crap. and i was like, speechless. then he started talking about the live 8 show. and he was like, did you watch the concert on tv? and i was like "nope, i didn't" and he was like "wow! you're really under a rock." then he just said "i'm pissed off, you don't have to talk to me if you can't deal with it." and i was like "wow... i can tell. i can deal with pissed off, but not when someone has let it take over and made them into this kind of person like it has with you".
it made me so angry. i had to leave. he just started lashing out at me in all these different ways... which is weird becuase he called me like an hour before andy was going to come pick me up and seemed really happy and like he always is. he wasn't being himself tonight and is kinda scared me.
but today has been amazing. the last performance of romeo & juliet. maryn is sending me a pic of she and warren making out. i'm excited.
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