Drifting away, slowly but steady
Their whole life people seek for eternity, seek for the meaning of life. Including myself...
Actually I thought I found it, the meaning of humans existence. But I was wrong, and it drives me crazy not knowing it. Before my mother became an buddhist, her religion was Wicca and she used to teach us everything as good as she could. All of her precious experience, she had given it to us. I am grateful. Thanks to her I found my own religion already when I was a little kid. Sooner or later I would have found it anyway by myself, it is an all-important part of my life. It made me be strong, and accept things like they are. So, I was able to see things in a different light than other children around me did. The bad thing about this is, that I never was a part of the normal society. Not that I desired to be a part of it. Actually I am not sure if its good or bad. It's just how it is, beside what exactly is good anyway? Or bad? Assuming, nobody would be able to answer this properly. Thats propably how I swing, always seeking the answer. Lets say I lost a precious thing somewhere, I would search for it till I drop, otherwise I wouldn't be able to sleep anymore. Because the questions in my head wouldn't stop, I proceed to find it. Also, I learnt to live the moment, live only in the present. It is kind of hard tho, every here and then I lose my track and think about future stuff. The past is unimportant to me, it doesnt mean anything to me, since there isn't even a way to change it. So, why should I even bother to think about the past? Irrelevant. Rather I live in the present and enjoy every single minute of my life. Because I am pretty sure it has a deeper meaning than just sitting here and typing nonsence. And I got to have confide and trust mother nature. One day I will be able to clearly see the meaning of my life. Therefor I keep going every single day. Avoiding to think of my future, or else I would pay interest on debts I would never do.
People come and go during life. One day you call them your friends, the other day they vanish. It is kind of rare having just one friend for the rest of your life. Don't be too sad if you lose someone, there will always come a new person in your life, again and again. Relationships forever are rare. So, try to enjoy it as long as it lasts. When you enjoy it and it starts to be precious to you, make sure you hold it as a good and beautiful memory inside your heart. Don't think of what could be or happen, just enjoy it. (^^)
Currently I am searching for my way, it seems that I lost it somehow. Maybe that is just a part of becoming more and more adult? Not sure. I am quite excited of what will come and happen even tho I try not to think too much about it. For sure I am watching too many Dramas lately, it makes me more mawkish than I already be. xD
Times are hard these days. Not even the sun comes out to shine anymore. This world surely changed a lot. But I have to be optimistic. . .
We all have to keep being optimistic. We must do everything conceivable. If it's for others or for ourselves, it doesn't matter. Ganbare everyone! Do your very best, and don't forget my saying...'Life is just a Game'. :]
Actually I thought I found it, the meaning of humans existence. But I was wrong, and it drives me crazy not knowing it. Before my mother became an buddhist, her religion was Wicca and she used to teach us everything as good as she could. All of her precious experience, she had given it to us. I am grateful. Thanks to her I found my own religion already when I was a little kid. Sooner or later I would have found it anyway by myself, it is an all-important part of my life. It made me be strong, and accept things like they are. So, I was able to see things in a different light than other children around me did. The bad thing about this is, that I never was a part of the normal society. Not that I desired to be a part of it. Actually I am not sure if its good or bad. It's just how it is, beside what exactly is good anyway? Or bad? Assuming, nobody would be able to answer this properly. Thats propably how I swing, always seeking the answer. Lets say I lost a precious thing somewhere, I would search for it till I drop, otherwise I wouldn't be able to sleep anymore. Because the questions in my head wouldn't stop, I proceed to find it. Also, I learnt to live the moment, live only in the present. It is kind of hard tho, every here and then I lose my track and think about future stuff. The past is unimportant to me, it doesnt mean anything to me, since there isn't even a way to change it. So, why should I even bother to think about the past? Irrelevant. Rather I live in the present and enjoy every single minute of my life. Because I am pretty sure it has a deeper meaning than just sitting here and typing nonsence. And I got to have confide and trust mother nature. One day I will be able to clearly see the meaning of my life. Therefor I keep going every single day. Avoiding to think of my future, or else I would pay interest on debts I would never do.
People come and go during life. One day you call them your friends, the other day they vanish. It is kind of rare having just one friend for the rest of your life. Don't be too sad if you lose someone, there will always come a new person in your life, again and again. Relationships forever are rare. So, try to enjoy it as long as it lasts. When you enjoy it and it starts to be precious to you, make sure you hold it as a good and beautiful memory inside your heart. Don't think of what could be or happen, just enjoy it. (^^)
Currently I am searching for my way, it seems that I lost it somehow. Maybe that is just a part of becoming more and more adult? Not sure. I am quite excited of what will come and happen even tho I try not to think too much about it. For sure I am watching too many Dramas lately, it makes me more mawkish than I already be. xD
Times are hard these days. Not even the sun comes out to shine anymore. This world surely changed a lot. But I have to be optimistic. . .
We all have to keep being optimistic. We must do everything conceivable. If it's for others or for ourselves, it doesn't matter. Ganbare everyone! Do your very best, and don't forget my saying...'Life is just a Game'. :]