So, today
Today I was awoken at 10 o'clock by Harrison, who is a black man, about 23, 5'8" or so with a good build and from Georgia, though I'm pretty sure his family is from Nigeria at least a generation back or so. Harrison wanted the homework from our premed class, and I was too...well, fuzzy to be like 'the fuck? It's my day to sleep in' so I found it and gave it to him. I then didn't go back to sleep because I needed to be up in an hour and a half anyway, so I got ready for school and then stopped by a halloween shop on the way home so that I could get fangs for my halloween costume, since I couldn't find my own.
So, I was almost on time for class, and sat up front. The lecturer was a Naturopathic doctor, and I was prepared to snooze through class. It's a great idea, not so good in practice, thats all I'm saying. So, I basically cheated on an audience question by looking it up on the internet, and got a free coffee mug. After class, Harrison and I went to the QRC, and hung out for a bit.
So, Savira I've decided is pretty funny, but he wouldn't leave for long enough for Harrison to get what was on his mind out on the floor. In short, he wants to date me, and I actually really like him, as in, have been thinking about him as a dating possibility. Which is odd, because though I've had sex, and enjoyed that, I don't date. I have no aversion to dating, other than the social roles of it being confusing to me, as I've had no practice, nor any social models, as my parent's...well, my parents never 'dated', and they didn't even like eachother after my little brother was born.
So, basically, like every other time, I subtly changed the subject. The movie was fun, and so was dress up. I fuckin' hate Chris, and after Jordan showed up, Chris asked if anyone had a car, and I had to glare at Jordan to make sure he didn't mention that I did, because damn. Afterwards, Jordan and I went to a resteraunt and ate.
It's kinda crazy how friendly Jordan and I are, we're just...well, really alike, and kooky the same ways sometimes. And it's nice to just be able to talk about crap, because I don't really have that many people to just talk with. Jordan totally thinks it's hilarious how well I can shift conversations the way I want them when I'm uncomfortable with a subject, like people likeing me. Because I can, and do, all the time. I pull of sweet, charming, and nieve very well, though in my head I'm usually thinking something very different. I dunno, weird.
Then, Jordan and I headed back to his place, and we watched Dennou Coil and gave eachother back scratches and head scratches, and after he stopped, it took a little while to put my mind into gear, I kinda stalled out for a while. It wasn't...well, horny intimate, but it was a lot more intimate than I usually get with people. Touching, in general, is frowned on where I come from, and trying to break out of that is odd. I don't think I've touched my brother Chris outside of smacks in almost a year and a half, and that was just handing him something and our hands touching. How wierd is that? So, in an effort to 'get over it', when Jordan wanted to know what kind of surgery I had, I flashed him, just to show. I have no problem showing people my chest, I think I came out great from the surgery, I just wish that the sides looked the same and that I could feel my nipples. As it stood, Jordan found it hilarious that I couldn't feel them and kept poking, and though I knew he was doing it, couldn't really feel it. This is probably the time to get my nipples pierced, now that I think about it.
Maybe thats why I don't date, because in my culture you don't really. I should start dating, though I really don't see a need for it, and the awkward possibilities are endless, because, as Jordan pointed out, I pass veeeeeeery well, and how do you broach the subject of 'hey, I have a vagina' with someone that has these thoughts of man sex with you? I dunno, I'll see. I havn't had to worry about it since I transitioned, but now suddenly theres a lot of interest in that area.
Also? If I don't get off and go to sleep, I have horny dreams, which are annoying. They'd be wet dreams, except, well, I don't have the plumming. Jesus, things are wierd.
And~, I just got invited to a party, which is...RSVP? That the acronym? So, just me, though Savira is going to be there. I dunno.
So, I was almost on time for class, and sat up front. The lecturer was a Naturopathic doctor, and I was prepared to snooze through class. It's a great idea, not so good in practice, thats all I'm saying. So, I basically cheated on an audience question by looking it up on the internet, and got a free coffee mug. After class, Harrison and I went to the QRC, and hung out for a bit.
So, Savira I've decided is pretty funny, but he wouldn't leave for long enough for Harrison to get what was on his mind out on the floor. In short, he wants to date me, and I actually really like him, as in, have been thinking about him as a dating possibility. Which is odd, because though I've had sex, and enjoyed that, I don't date. I have no aversion to dating, other than the social roles of it being confusing to me, as I've had no practice, nor any social models, as my parent's...well, my parents never 'dated', and they didn't even like eachother after my little brother was born.
So, basically, like every other time, I subtly changed the subject. The movie was fun, and so was dress up. I fuckin' hate Chris, and after Jordan showed up, Chris asked if anyone had a car, and I had to glare at Jordan to make sure he didn't mention that I did, because damn. Afterwards, Jordan and I went to a resteraunt and ate.
It's kinda crazy how friendly Jordan and I are, we're just...well, really alike, and kooky the same ways sometimes. And it's nice to just be able to talk about crap, because I don't really have that many people to just talk with. Jordan totally thinks it's hilarious how well I can shift conversations the way I want them when I'm uncomfortable with a subject, like people likeing me. Because I can, and do, all the time. I pull of sweet, charming, and nieve very well, though in my head I'm usually thinking something very different. I dunno, weird.
Then, Jordan and I headed back to his place, and we watched Dennou Coil and gave eachother back scratches and head scratches, and after he stopped, it took a little while to put my mind into gear, I kinda stalled out for a while. It wasn't...well, horny intimate, but it was a lot more intimate than I usually get with people. Touching, in general, is frowned on where I come from, and trying to break out of that is odd. I don't think I've touched my brother Chris outside of smacks in almost a year and a half, and that was just handing him something and our hands touching. How wierd is that? So, in an effort to 'get over it', when Jordan wanted to know what kind of surgery I had, I flashed him, just to show. I have no problem showing people my chest, I think I came out great from the surgery, I just wish that the sides looked the same and that I could feel my nipples. As it stood, Jordan found it hilarious that I couldn't feel them and kept poking, and though I knew he was doing it, couldn't really feel it. This is probably the time to get my nipples pierced, now that I think about it.
Maybe thats why I don't date, because in my culture you don't really. I should start dating, though I really don't see a need for it, and the awkward possibilities are endless, because, as Jordan pointed out, I pass veeeeeeery well, and how do you broach the subject of 'hey, I have a vagina' with someone that has these thoughts of man sex with you? I dunno, I'll see. I havn't had to worry about it since I transitioned, but now suddenly theres a lot of interest in that area.
Also? If I don't get off and go to sleep, I have horny dreams, which are annoying. They'd be wet dreams, except, well, I don't have the plumming. Jesus, things are wierd.
And~, I just got invited to a party, which is...RSVP? That the acronym? So, just me, though Savira is going to be there. I dunno.