Feb 22, 2004 20:22
Ive really fucked up this time.
You told me not to feel bad but when I said goodbye you never replied.It makes me feel likes shit.Even though I shouldn't.I wish things didn't turn out this way.I wish that I never would have told you.Maybe things would be better right now.I miss you and I don't want to hurt you but when I keep remembering how great it was when we were friends and then I look at what has been happening I can't help but wonder if things would be better off if we were friends.But then I wonder if we decided to be friends would we even be friends? It took me 3 months to re-become friends with stephen and I only went out with him for 5days.Think of how it would be if we decided that......I can't help but wonder what you would tell people and how you would feel.I don't want to loose you.I love you too much.
I hate myself.
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I will dance so freely
Holding on to no one
You can hold me only
If you too will fall
Away from all these useless fears
And shame
Someone I am
Is waiting for my courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me
So let me fall
If I must fall
I won't heed your warning
I won't hear
Let me fall
If I fall
There's no reason
To miss this one chance
This perfect moment
Just let me fall