Surreal night is surreal ._.
Well...that was unexpected. Until a few moments ago, I was in a 2-hour conversation with someone I honestly had never thought to hear from again - Sarah. Turns out that Fate's raging erection for throwing curve balls remains as firm as ever, as it happens that Sarah seems to know Sam. Small world is small.
Her communique seemed quite foreboding and threatening at first, and I was honestly a bit offended by its content, until I stopped to think. 1) The two of them are acquainted. 2) They have mutual friends. 3) Our breakup left us both with feelings of resentment, and 4) Sarah and I haven't spoken in ages, so her last memory of me is the bitter ex against whom she waged titanic verbal battles, not the normal and genuine person I've become since then. So, adding this all together, it stands to reason that upon seeing her ex-honey suddenly dating an acquaintance, she'd be suspicious that I have some sinister plan of infiltrating her social circle and stirring up trouble out of some lingering spite. It's very understandable. If I discovered that she was dating someone acquainted with a member of my D&D group or wargaming circle, I'd probably be thinking the same thing.
So, we talked. We both seemed to be somewhat bewildered by the circumstances - Neither of us had expected to see or hear from the other again - so we kept things trivial. We talked about school, work, Avatar, and other such things. I actually caught myself chuckling and smiling a few times as we joked back and forth. To the casual observer, it would almost seem like a genuine conversation between friends, not bitter exes. By the end of the conversation, I think (or at least hope) she was left with the impression that my intentions toward Sam are honorable. Mostly because they are. I don't know if ours is a romantic connection, but I suppose time will tell.
Does this mean we're friends now? I doubt it. With our history, to make such a sudden transition would be unwise. At the end, we honestly brought out the worst in each other, and each of us left scars on the other. IF we did start a friendship - IF - then it would have to be something we approached cautiously, treading very lightly and letting it build over time. I'll be bluntly honest, there's always been a part of me that missed talking to her. She has a very quirky, eccentric personality, and when we're not spitting venom at each other, she's genuinely charming. I wouldn't mind having her in my life again. But way too much has happened between us for it to be that simple. Like I said, we'll have to tread lightly if we want it to happen, and even then, it's something we would both have to truly want. I need time to figure that out, and I'm sure she does, too.
Her communique seemed quite foreboding and threatening at first, and I was honestly a bit offended by its content, until I stopped to think. 1) The two of them are acquainted. 2) They have mutual friends. 3) Our breakup left us both with feelings of resentment, and 4) Sarah and I haven't spoken in ages, so her last memory of me is the bitter ex against whom she waged titanic verbal battles, not the normal and genuine person I've become since then. So, adding this all together, it stands to reason that upon seeing her ex-honey suddenly dating an acquaintance, she'd be suspicious that I have some sinister plan of infiltrating her social circle and stirring up trouble out of some lingering spite. It's very understandable. If I discovered that she was dating someone acquainted with a member of my D&D group or wargaming circle, I'd probably be thinking the same thing.
So, we talked. We both seemed to be somewhat bewildered by the circumstances - Neither of us had expected to see or hear from the other again - so we kept things trivial. We talked about school, work, Avatar, and other such things. I actually caught myself chuckling and smiling a few times as we joked back and forth. To the casual observer, it would almost seem like a genuine conversation between friends, not bitter exes. By the end of the conversation, I think (or at least hope) she was left with the impression that my intentions toward Sam are honorable. Mostly because they are. I don't know if ours is a romantic connection, but I suppose time will tell.
Does this mean we're friends now? I doubt it. With our history, to make such a sudden transition would be unwise. At the end, we honestly brought out the worst in each other, and each of us left scars on the other. IF we did start a friendship - IF - then it would have to be something we approached cautiously, treading very lightly and letting it build over time. I'll be bluntly honest, there's always been a part of me that missed talking to her. She has a very quirky, eccentric personality, and when we're not spitting venom at each other, she's genuinely charming. I wouldn't mind having her in my life again. But way too much has happened between us for it to be that simple. Like I said, we'll have to tread lightly if we want it to happen, and even then, it's something we would both have to truly want. I need time to figure that out, and I'm sure she does, too.