yay wednesdays!
I can't contain my excitement for tonight so I thought I would write about it in here. I absolutely cannot wait until I go to friendly's tonight and thennnnnn! I'm going to The Early November show with those cool kids from Russell C! Unfortunately I won't have any monies because I'm broke, literally broke because I have enough for dinner tonight or I will and then I'm spent until Friday at 12am when I get my paycheck again. I hate being broke and I hate walgreens and I hate this 2 week pay period thing. But I loooove The Early November, and I loooove my friends.
I have been thinking recently about how I've been acting towards some of my friends and to be honest I think I've been a bit of an asshole. I spent so much time complaining to them about Will, and then after that I spent so much time talking to them about other guys, and I spent barely any time hanging out with them or talking to them about their lives. That could be why I feel so left out, and so I'm going to try and be better with that. Because I'm not Will, my main purpose in life is not to date as many people as I can just so I don't have to be "alone", and when I think back on it some of the most amazing days in my life are ones that I've spent with my friends and not with a guy. Romance is cool and everything but it isn't everything. I have plenty of time to find someone else, and I eventually will. However, I don't want to ignore my friends in the process. They helped me through my breakup with Will, especially Brittany and AJ. They don't deserve for me to ignore them.
It's been pretty dumb of me to get upset with them when they don't invite me places, and if I were in their place maybe I wouldn't want to invite me either. So to all of my friends who actually read this, I'm sorry for being a jackass and I plan to change.
I have been thinking recently about how I've been acting towards some of my friends and to be honest I think I've been a bit of an asshole. I spent so much time complaining to them about Will, and then after that I spent so much time talking to them about other guys, and I spent barely any time hanging out with them or talking to them about their lives. That could be why I feel so left out, and so I'm going to try and be better with that. Because I'm not Will, my main purpose in life is not to date as many people as I can just so I don't have to be "alone", and when I think back on it some of the most amazing days in my life are ones that I've spent with my friends and not with a guy. Romance is cool and everything but it isn't everything. I have plenty of time to find someone else, and I eventually will. However, I don't want to ignore my friends in the process. They helped me through my breakup with Will, especially Brittany and AJ. They don't deserve for me to ignore them.
It's been pretty dumb of me to get upset with them when they don't invite me places, and if I were in their place maybe I wouldn't want to invite me either. So to all of my friends who actually read this, I'm sorry for being a jackass and I plan to change.