SS Telepathy Update....
S.S. Telepathy
Presents
“What’s on my Mind?” Session
Konbanwa! I am Sawada Shinju and I’m going to tell what happened to me for the past two weeks.
Well… truth to be told, I had been in a great mess these past few days. Actually it started waaaaaay back then but I was able to get through it and now I am very happy that it has somehow been put into a closure. I was really scared with what I was thinking but hey! It was still somewhat logical yo~ Either way I’m glad I’m still alive and was still able to witness things I haven’t seen before. So, what’s on my mind? Hmmm… I guess I have to be the best that I can be and use this life to something meaningful and of value so when I leave, many would remember me. ^^
The pre-school assistant teacher-experience is really something precious. Whenever I share something I can say to myself that “Hey! That’s something you can’t learn from staying all day in your house the whole summer” I therefore conclude, although it’s too early to say, that my natsuyasumi has been very meaningful. ^^
On the other side of the world, I still exist as a fan girl of course! I was making the 6th chapter of my current fic when suddenly my lovely sister Christine Mendoza reminded me of how I started as a fan. I remembered how I was forced to watch PVs and live performances of a particular Japanese group during my freshman days in college not skipping a day of hearing from my former classmate about how great they were(happened around JULY). I was like “yeah they’re good.” But was half listening in short I wasn’t really interested but since I love this former classmate/former orgmate(J-culture orgmate) of mine so much, I watched her flail which I find really cute over YAMADA RYOSUKE (I don’t know him that time so it used to be YAMADA RYOSUKE whoever it is) that she claims to be her husband! XDD. Yes, they are really good but if you know me well, I’m not the type to just get influenced that easy. It has to catch my attention first whatever it is because I HAVE MY PRIORITIES. Yeah, that was me before. I stick with the rules and you can call me a nerd, weird person or KJ, name it I DON’T CARE. That’s me so if you really love me, you’ll accept that fact. Any way, as I was saying, I was just busy with school life and my Japanese-culture org in short, my boring life, - nothing special but this watching of videos has become a habit that I can’t remove so I tried my best to get used to it. And surprisingly, I did. It was magic. We all know that there are 10 members in Hey! Say! JUMP (YAMADA RYOSUKE which Joana deems camera whore, CHINEN YURI, the cutest kid in the group, TAKAKI YUYA the coolest of them all, etc) how is it possible that every time I point at the monitor be it PSP or laptop, asking “who’s this?” the only answer would be Nakajima Yuto? No. I don’t know him. I seldom watch intently. I told you I was watching my friend flail right? ^^ and seriously, the only name I know was Yamada and Chinen (I can’t even get it right whenever I ask her “this is Yamada/Chinen right?”) not only that! Even the voice! Random listening to JUMP music. I ask “who sang this part?” (song playing: Star Time 1st line) then the next song “Who sang this part?” (song playing: MNSB ‘shadow?’ I didn’t ask who sang the first ‘shadow’) Weird deshou? And every time that happens my former classmate would tell me, “really, you should go fan girling now and make Nakajima Yuto your ichiban” LOL I didn’t even know what fan girling means before! I wonder how much patience she had whenever I’d ask her and it would only be answered by “Yuto”. LOL Tine said “I WAS DESTINED TO BE HIS FAN GIRL”
I thought of that… I shrugged, maybe. Because if I wasn’t his fan girl, I wouldn’t be having the friends I have today and that’s one reason I was thankful enough to be a HSJ fan.^^ I was once one of those who dreamed to be their ichiban’s JULIET but reality came to me and told me to wake up. I laughed at my foolishness. Indeed. And until today, I’m really amused with what happened to me when I was still a I-don’t-know-what-to-call type of fan girl. But I could never deny the inspiration he brought into my life. It was… indescribable. Despite our 10 months gap, he affects me this way. Some say I’m really in love with him but I tend to shrug it off not ever believing and in the end theyd believe me. Though I really can’t believe how he’s able to make my heart flutter and other weird things (yes, shinju, you’re telling another weird stuff again /whacks own head) Maybe the doing of the fan girl part of me? SO yes, basically I’m a semi fangirl again because somehow, I’m saying “I miss you” again or anything weird. Gaaaah!
OOOOkay! ThAT was random! Jyaa this entry is LOOOONG, RANDOM AND COMPLICATED~ This has been Sawada Shinju saying thank you for bearing with my RANDOMNESS!
Till next time!
Love and Peace,
Sawada Shinju