Well, boo on this
So I've continued the conversation with the boy in question. Apparently he liked me way back months ago ,but it has disappeared since then.
It was a really really kinda strained conversation and since we were in the mall it was easy to distract and not talk about it. He feels kinda awkward about it and I think he doesn't really believe that I do in fact have a liking of him. BAH! So I asked straight out, "would you go out with me?"
He laughed and then when I didn't say anything he looked at me and said "Are you serious?" Well duh....mind you I am not straight forward with these types of things and it took a lot for me to say anything at all really.
He said he just doesn't know right now. He wants to know if I'll wait. I mean I don't mind, but no one wants to be told to wait and I said that to him.
I told him that I pretty much have never come out and told anyone that I have liked them like this in person or anything, EVER. Yea, I am that pathetic I suppose...I dunno. Nobody has really caught my attention, so I guess that's the reason I have never dated in all my 21 years of life. It kinda sucks at time, but other times its nice to know that I am not in the drama fest.
It's not that I have like broken heart syndrome at the moment, but it looks to be that nothing is going to happen. Friends is what the outlook for our relationship reads to my eyes right now. This is uncharted territory for me anywhere I step so its all learning. I'm glad I am forcing myself to do this in person instead of over the phone or email or texting.
It does make me sad that it has turned out this way. It seemed awfully positive last time....but that was monday and this was saturday.
SHIT FUCK....Lara, you need to just stop liking anyone ever. It never seems to go anywhere with anyone. I've not known anyone who has told me that they have liked me. Except for the above happenings, and that is in a past tense.
I got my tax return, got paid, was told that I am moving back to front end on the 27th and it looked as if the week was great. Then I had the epic conversation continuation. Getting shut down constantly in one area really makes me depressed and not want to try because it looks like nothing good is going to come out of it.
But now I'm just rambling and being all complainy/whiney. *sigh* All I can do is try to stay positive! POSITIVE ATTITUDE!!! :D
It was a really really kinda strained conversation and since we were in the mall it was easy to distract and not talk about it. He feels kinda awkward about it and I think he doesn't really believe that I do in fact have a liking of him. BAH! So I asked straight out, "would you go out with me?"
He laughed and then when I didn't say anything he looked at me and said "Are you serious?" Well duh....mind you I am not straight forward with these types of things and it took a lot for me to say anything at all really.
He said he just doesn't know right now. He wants to know if I'll wait. I mean I don't mind, but no one wants to be told to wait and I said that to him.
I told him that I pretty much have never come out and told anyone that I have liked them like this in person or anything, EVER. Yea, I am that pathetic I suppose...I dunno. Nobody has really caught my attention, so I guess that's the reason I have never dated in all my 21 years of life. It kinda sucks at time, but other times its nice to know that I am not in the drama fest.
It's not that I have like broken heart syndrome at the moment, but it looks to be that nothing is going to happen. Friends is what the outlook for our relationship reads to my eyes right now. This is uncharted territory for me anywhere I step so its all learning. I'm glad I am forcing myself to do this in person instead of over the phone or email or texting.
It does make me sad that it has turned out this way. It seemed awfully positive last time....but that was monday and this was saturday.
SHIT FUCK....Lara, you need to just stop liking anyone ever. It never seems to go anywhere with anyone. I've not known anyone who has told me that they have liked me. Except for the above happenings, and that is in a past tense.
I got my tax return, got paid, was told that I am moving back to front end on the 27th and it looked as if the week was great. Then I had the epic conversation continuation. Getting shut down constantly in one area really makes me depressed and not want to try because it looks like nothing good is going to come out of it.
But now I'm just rambling and being all complainy/whiney. *sigh* All I can do is try to stay positive! POSITIVE ATTITUDE!!! :D